Onmyway19
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Fight that urge. Write down your feelings, bang out some push-ups, go for a walk, ANYTHING will put you in a better place than using P.Close to relapse
Fight that urge. Write down your feelings, bang out some push-ups, go for a walk, ANYTHING will put you in a better place than using P.Close to relapse
Didn’t really stay away yesterday. Edging again. Trying to get this under control on my own without the filter
I am relapsing about every three days again. I know what you mean about the filter. I have a dependency on it, but I am gonna go back to it considering. I have to take a break from everything I like. And this endless scrolling is reinjuring my hands. Tomorrow I will be back on the filter.Good for you, k-fff~! It just takes practice, and you may fall a couple of times, but don't go back to the filter, unless you really feel you don't have control.
All of my more lengthier streaks have been without p-filters or other disempowering methods.
You can do it! Believe in yourself, you'll be stronger for it.
Depressed. I am really really depressed.
I’m still porn free which is good, but I have pretty much lost hope in finding a woman to spend the rest of my life with. At the moment, that’s where I’m at. I need to leave my job and the country I’m in for my longterm health and sanity.Hope you feel better, k-fff! I know sometimes it seems hopeless, like nothing will change. Be patient with yourself, and never give up. Just like drops of water over time can carve out breath-taking canyons, your small incremental changes will carve out a new life for you.
I’m still porn free which is good, but I have pretty much lost hope in finding a woman to spend the rest of my life with. At the moment, that’s where I’m at. I need to leave my job and the country I’m in for my longterm health and sanity.
Yea, I feel like I’m suffocating, but more then anything I am tired. I can say I am happy I am not numbing these feelings with porn. I feel like it’s impossible to tell how you really feel when you’re using it.It may be difficult, but you'll always thank yourself for making that move... When I read this I had the imagery of cutting oneself lose from being trapped under a rock- you may lose an arm rather than die there (and I hope its not that dire!), but you'll regain your freedom and your life!
These days are usually around the time I fail and relapse. The most I’m doing is just focusing on staying porn free. My hands are still very hurt and doctors have been completely useless in helping me,Sorry to hear about how you're feeling k-fff
Make a plan for change, break it down into small but concrete steps, and do it
Amazing work getting to day 41 too - easy to run to porn when things get tough, but great to see you working on yourself