Just bear with me. Am 24 years old and have been fighting this battle since i can remember. I will stop for a period and then after sometime, I find myself relapsing again. Here am I today again hoping to begin my journey to total freedom.
It all began when I was around 12 years old at a church when I saw a guy masturbating and I got curious so I tried it out. It felt good and pleasurable that I actually started masturbating from that time onward using some of my famale teachers as triggers. And that continued till I entered secondary school where I was introduced to harlequin novels which became my new trigger. On entering university my parents bought a laptop and phone for me cause their policy was that you don't have any personal electronic device until you are done with high school. On getting those devices, I got free access to pornographic sites,videos, comics, mangas and manhuas which became my new trigger. Am currently running my master's program but still chained by this beast called pornography. It has prevented me from relating with people especially those of the opposite sex and it has completely changed my thought process and I do almost everything alone without interacting with other people. I have tried changing over and over again but have only succeeded for at most 6 months before relapsing again.
As I embark on this journey again, my goal is just to live free one day at a time till am free indeed. Onward ever, backward never since I've found a community I can be accountable to. Thanks.
It all began when I was around 12 years old at a church when I saw a guy masturbating and I got curious so I tried it out. It felt good and pleasurable that I actually started masturbating from that time onward using some of my famale teachers as triggers. And that continued till I entered secondary school where I was introduced to harlequin novels which became my new trigger. On entering university my parents bought a laptop and phone for me cause their policy was that you don't have any personal electronic device until you are done with high school. On getting those devices, I got free access to pornographic sites,videos, comics, mangas and manhuas which became my new trigger. Am currently running my master's program but still chained by this beast called pornography. It has prevented me from relating with people especially those of the opposite sex and it has completely changed my thought process and I do almost everything alone without interacting with other people. I have tried changing over and over again but have only succeeded for at most 6 months before relapsing again.
As I embark on this journey again, my goal is just to live free one day at a time till am free indeed. Onward ever, backward never since I've found a community I can be accountable to. Thanks.