reboot_8716
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I’m at about the 3 week mark now and having a harder time the last day than I was before.
it’s weird because on the one hand I don’t really have any desire to look at porn right now. Part of me wants to masturbate (without using porn) but it’s mostly because I can feel a buildup of unreleased sexual tension in me. I don’t feel genuinely aroused, more like a craving for a habit I haven’t kicked. But another part of me feels too depressed and irritable in general to want even that.
i know I could ask my wife for some intimacy over the weekend and she’d probably say yes, but I feel my mood is crappy enough that it wouldn’t really be a fun and enjoyable experience for either of us. So I’m left feeling a little depressed and frustrated.
I’m also hyper aware of hearing any story or seeing on tv anything resembling romantic intimacy right now. Listening to an audio book where they talk about the partners making love makes me feel sad and frustrated that I have ED and can’t do that. Hearing people on tv shows talk about the sex being good with their partner makes me feel like my relationship is a failure because our sex isn’t good and hasn’t been for a while.
i know the answer is not porn and I’m not going to give into it, but it also just sucks to feel this way.
it’s weird because on the one hand I don’t really have any desire to look at porn right now. Part of me wants to masturbate (without using porn) but it’s mostly because I can feel a buildup of unreleased sexual tension in me. I don’t feel genuinely aroused, more like a craving for a habit I haven’t kicked. But another part of me feels too depressed and irritable in general to want even that.
i know I could ask my wife for some intimacy over the weekend and she’d probably say yes, but I feel my mood is crappy enough that it wouldn’t really be a fun and enjoyable experience for either of us. So I’m left feeling a little depressed and frustrated.
I’m also hyper aware of hearing any story or seeing on tv anything resembling romantic intimacy right now. Listening to an audio book where they talk about the partners making love makes me feel sad and frustrated that I have ED and can’t do that. Hearing people on tv shows talk about the sex being good with their partner makes me feel like my relationship is a failure because our sex isn’t good and hasn’t been for a while.
i know the answer is not porn and I’m not going to give into it, but it also just sucks to feel this way.
