I am learning a bit JS too ! Thanks for your motivation
I have been busy programming since Sunday. It feels good to be motivated towards something else than P or video games.
2 hours ago, i did something that i thought impossible for me to do. I did a survey, meaning i had to go meet people, having to catch their attention etc ..
Even if positive things happen i need to remind me that the addiction is still here, hiding and waiting the good moment to hijack my dopamine system. I must stay aware of the attraction towards easy pleasure. It's always easier to give up our responsibilities than to embrace them and do what we need to do. But the real truth, is that leaving our responsibilities means letting other things control us, dictate our behaviour. And at the end, we don't live anymore, we don't have what we want, we are overwhelmed by stress.
It's funny how easy pleasure and stress are both opposite and similar. Anxiety/stress is the indicator of when and on what we should act to increase our well being. Whereas seeking pleasure often leads to a miserable life and is unnecessary. We feel empty or exhaust after indulging in p. But in the meantime when we don't listen to our anxiety and stress and conceal it by getting numb with high dopamine rush, we are more likely to feel more and more anxious. Because you can lie to yourselves but only shallowly. Even if you tell yourself: "oh it's ok it will be the last time", you know that's not the truth. And I think that self conceit is the main reason for feeling anxious.
I am not done yet. It has been approximatly 20 days. It's not even 1% of the time numbing my brain. I have to stay aware that i will always be addicted in some ways. Because our brain is made like that. Companies will always try to hack our reward circuit . Do we want to be the product or to create products?