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I was exposed to internet porn at a young age, probably 10/11
Started having sex at 17. The first few times didn't have any physiological problems. But it didn't take long for the DE to start happening. Could not reach an O from intercourse-- unless I fantasized about either porn or a different situation than the one I was in. Didn't think porn was the problem at the time though.
I wasn't circumcised as a baby and thought that had something to do with it; got it done at age 21 to see if it would help with the sensitivity. It didn't.
I actually attempted this process 2 years ago on a different site after learning about NoFap on Reddit. Tried to share about it with my partner at the time, and she, being a fiercely argumentative type saw it as some kind of crusade against the sex industry funded by evangelicals and I felt so ashamed that I gave up on it entirely and just accepted that it was fine to be this way. Maybe I'd find a different solution. Or something
No longer in that relationship thankfully. Actually in a much healthier place emotionally than I think I've ever been, in part thanks to my really awesome therapist who went and found Gabe Deem's videos for me when I told her about this. Eternally grateful for her support
In the headspace I'm in now, I feel ready to tackle this. I've been pretty disconnected from other people for a lot of my life, but always craved that emotional and physical connection. I'm really focused on myself right now, being the best I can be and not worrying about whether or not I'm in a relationship. Whenever I do meet someone special I want this issue to be behind me
Triggers I'm currently aware of:
Recently noticed that my evening ritual of junk food + netflix/video games pretty much funneled into PMOing every time, so that engaging in the first part of it basically got me antsy and anticipating the PMO. Knowing that, I've been able to divert that course the last few nights.
Last PMO was on Monday morning 1/24/2022.
I've set up a counter on my phone to keep track, and an 8pm daily reminder that says "Reboot your Brain!" to remind me of my goal.
I am at 3 days, 8 hours as of this writing. Feeling pretty ok about it!
Thank you to everyone in this community for showing the way
I was exposed to internet porn at a young age, probably 10/11
Started having sex at 17. The first few times didn't have any physiological problems. But it didn't take long for the DE to start happening. Could not reach an O from intercourse-- unless I fantasized about either porn or a different situation than the one I was in. Didn't think porn was the problem at the time though.
I wasn't circumcised as a baby and thought that had something to do with it; got it done at age 21 to see if it would help with the sensitivity. It didn't.
I actually attempted this process 2 years ago on a different site after learning about NoFap on Reddit. Tried to share about it with my partner at the time, and she, being a fiercely argumentative type saw it as some kind of crusade against the sex industry funded by evangelicals and I felt so ashamed that I gave up on it entirely and just accepted that it was fine to be this way. Maybe I'd find a different solution. Or something
No longer in that relationship thankfully. Actually in a much healthier place emotionally than I think I've ever been, in part thanks to my really awesome therapist who went and found Gabe Deem's videos for me when I told her about this. Eternally grateful for her support
In the headspace I'm in now, I feel ready to tackle this. I've been pretty disconnected from other people for a lot of my life, but always craved that emotional and physical connection. I'm really focused on myself right now, being the best I can be and not worrying about whether or not I'm in a relationship. Whenever I do meet someone special I want this issue to be behind me
Triggers I'm currently aware of:
Recently noticed that my evening ritual of junk food + netflix/video games pretty much funneled into PMOing every time, so that engaging in the first part of it basically got me antsy and anticipating the PMO. Knowing that, I've been able to divert that course the last few nights.
Last PMO was on Monday morning 1/24/2022.
I've set up a counter on my phone to keep track, and an 8pm daily reminder that says "Reboot your Brain!" to remind me of my goal.
I am at 3 days, 8 hours as of this writing. Feeling pretty ok about it!
Thank you to everyone in this community for showing the way