Prakash
Member
Good.. Ok i understand man... Its very hard mode if you not use social media Facebook etc..... But how can possible not watch girls in the out side?
Finally, I'm doing this…
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Ezel
Respected Member
for me personally. in my last relapses, the way it all started is by checking women out.
and it ends the same way by going back to the screen.
i know it's hard to not check women out. but trust me it works, at least for me. otherwise, I wouldn't be able to be porn free for 50 days in a row.
monk mode is not for everybody. you can stick to no fap or semen retention as shown on the table earlier.
it really depends on how your brain is affected by porn.
my brain is really fucked up by porn. that's why I went monk mode.
no pain, no gain. that's the only way out of this porn rabbit hole.
that's just how I see it. you do you.
Ezel
Respected Member
Day59, no po, no mo.
1 day left to hit 2 months of reboot. Too many things happened in this last month.
One thing is, I don’t write a lot as I used to.
I would just write how many days I’m abstaining from porn and masturbation. And then go binge-watch youtube videos all day long.
I became too lazy to write. I don’t know why. Is it because of the reboot? I hope it is, if it isn’t, I must get my shit together.
Otherwise, I could relapse eventually if I kept going like this.
You could never know what youtube can throw at you, even though I try my best to keep away from any triggering content.
The thought of relapsing and then coming here and writing that I relapsed is what keeps me going and keeping myself away from porn.
If I didn’t have this journal to write my daily progress, 100% I would have relapsed many times. Cuz there is no one watching to hold me accountable.
This is where journaling comes in, it’s the only thing that is preventing me from going back to porn.
I think my brain doesn’t get his dopamine anymore from anything real-life-related. Like if it’s inviting me to go back and watch porn by telling me there is nothing out there that deserves pursuing.
So what now? Do I just accept what my brain is telling me and believe this nonsense? To hell with that.
I didn’t go through 2 months of reboot just to give up now.
One thing I know for sure is I’m still unwiring my brain from porn. It took much more time than I had in mind, I just have to be patient and not give in to what my brain is telling me.
One more thing is, the next month is going to be a piece of cake for me.
2 days are left for the month of Ramadan, for us Muslims Ramadan is for fasting, worshiping, and praying. Not fasting just from food and sex but from any other unsuitable behavior that goes against the Islamic religion.
With 14 hours of no food in my system, I will not have time to think about porn, masturbation, and sex. It’s just human nature if you’re hungry and thirsty to prioritize food and water over sex.
It doesn’t mean that during Ramadan sex doesn't occur to me at all when I’m fasting, but it means that the sex drive is not that powerful when I'm fasting.
Okay, that’s all I got for today.
Ramadan Mubarak.
Peace.
Ezel.
1 day left to hit 2 months of reboot. Too many things happened in this last month.
One thing is, I don’t write a lot as I used to.
I would just write how many days I’m abstaining from porn and masturbation. And then go binge-watch youtube videos all day long.
I became too lazy to write. I don’t know why. Is it because of the reboot? I hope it is, if it isn’t, I must get my shit together.
Otherwise, I could relapse eventually if I kept going like this.
You could never know what youtube can throw at you, even though I try my best to keep away from any triggering content.
The thought of relapsing and then coming here and writing that I relapsed is what keeps me going and keeping myself away from porn.
If I didn’t have this journal to write my daily progress, 100% I would have relapsed many times. Cuz there is no one watching to hold me accountable.
This is where journaling comes in, it’s the only thing that is preventing me from going back to porn.
I think my brain doesn’t get his dopamine anymore from anything real-life-related. Like if it’s inviting me to go back and watch porn by telling me there is nothing out there that deserves pursuing.
So what now? Do I just accept what my brain is telling me and believe this nonsense? To hell with that.
I didn’t go through 2 months of reboot just to give up now.
One thing I know for sure is I’m still unwiring my brain from porn. It took much more time than I had in mind, I just have to be patient and not give in to what my brain is telling me.
One more thing is, the next month is going to be a piece of cake for me.
2 days are left for the month of Ramadan, for us Muslims Ramadan is for fasting, worshiping, and praying. Not fasting just from food and sex but from any other unsuitable behavior that goes against the Islamic religion.
With 14 hours of no food in my system, I will not have time to think about porn, masturbation, and sex. It’s just human nature if you’re hungry and thirsty to prioritize food and water over sex.
It doesn’t mean that during Ramadan sex doesn't occur to me at all when I’m fasting, but it means that the sex drive is not that powerful when I'm fasting.
Okay, that’s all I got for today.
Ramadan Mubarak.
Peace.
Ezel.
Ezel
Respected Member
Day60, no po, no mo.
2 months of rebooting have been completed today.
This is just the beginning, I can’t wait to hit another month of reboot, which will be this Ramadan. which will make it very easy on me.
After that, I’m going to finish the 90 days reboot challenge.
But I must not get ahead of myself, I have to take things one step at a time, you never know what could happen.
Funny thing is, just last night as I was scrolling through my Youtube feed, I read this thumbnail of a guy and his experience dating a well-known pornstar.
So what do I do, do I click and watch the video… no, I went immediately and googled her name, my brain was on autopilot.
Thank god the results showed only her social media accounts. It showed some pictures of her only, not some porn-related images.
However those images of her on her own were triggering, but I didn’t binge scroll through them, I finally closed the tab after 30 seconds (which is the longest time I have been playing with fire since I started this reboot).
I hope this will never happen again. See that’s why I must not get ahead of myself, I have to focus on my day and keeping clean from porn, instead of planning a month in the future.
Peace.
Ezel.
2 months of rebooting have been completed today.
This is just the beginning, I can’t wait to hit another month of reboot, which will be this Ramadan. which will make it very easy on me.
After that, I’m going to finish the 90 days reboot challenge.
But I must not get ahead of myself, I have to take things one step at a time, you never know what could happen.
Funny thing is, just last night as I was scrolling through my Youtube feed, I read this thumbnail of a guy and his experience dating a well-known pornstar.
So what do I do, do I click and watch the video… no, I went immediately and googled her name, my brain was on autopilot.
Thank god the results showed only her social media accounts. It showed some pictures of her only, not some porn-related images.
However those images of her on her own were triggering, but I didn’t binge scroll through them, I finally closed the tab after 30 seconds (which is the longest time I have been playing with fire since I started this reboot).
I hope this will never happen again. See that’s why I must not get ahead of myself, I have to focus on my day and keeping clean from porn, instead of planning a month in the future.
Peace.
Ezel.
Onmyway19
Active Member
Congrats on 60! Great attitude on keeping diligent. Though it's a great milestone, it's still just the tip of the iceberg of a fulfilling life without P. Keep it up
Ezel
Respected Member
thanks man. i appreciate your support. all this struggle will be worth it someday. we just have to believe and work on ourselves.
