swimmer97
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It happens bro, this is not about streaks, its about the healing of your brain. Just move on. Dont fall into a binge. You got this bro
Finally, I'm doing this…
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Blondie
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It's okay @Ezel, this is all a growing process. On the long term scale, you've come so far on this journey over the last year and a half. I mean, you've only looked at porn a handful of times, compared to I would assume all the time. Point your thoughts to that truth and get back up and keep on moving.
What brought it on?
Ezel
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I was facing a lot of stress lately and what broke the camel's back is seeing some triggers on social media. And you know the rest...
Ezel
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Thank you guys for the support @Blondie @Androg @swimmer97. I made a mistake i dipped my toe into that filthy swamp, and i wish I didn't. But that's from the past now. But i have to admit this is the longest streak that i ever pulled off (5months+) it was a hell of a ride, 160days with no masterbation at the age of 24yo with all those crazy hormones doing their thing.
But like Blondie and swimmer said it's not about numbers, it's about progress.
Tomorrow is a new day. If you wanna take down the island you better burn down those boats .
But like Blondie and swimmer said it's not about numbers, it's about progress.
Tomorrow is a new day. If you wanna take down the island you better burn down those boats .
You got this, brother!
Keep in mind, none of your progress is lost and to lapse is part of the journey. This is most of our experience.
How fast you bounce back will be determined by how much meaning you put into the lapse. And, in the bigger picture, this lapse is meaningless.
What is meaningful is that you got right back up and started abstaining again. Just keep getting up, no matter what happens. You’ll find your footing again, if you haven’t already!
God bless and keep you!
Keep in mind, none of your progress is lost and to lapse is part of the journey. This is most of our experience.
How fast you bounce back will be determined by how much meaning you put into the lapse. And, in the bigger picture, this lapse is meaningless.
What is meaningful is that you got right back up and started abstaining again. Just keep getting up, no matter what happens. You’ll find your footing again, if you haven’t already!
God bless and keep you!
Escapeandnevercomeback
Respected Member
You can do it, man. You've made it further ahead that I've ever done. You got this.
Ezel
Respected Member
Day 5 (no po, no mo), monk mode.
1 wet dream.
Woke up this morning with wet boxers. I was surprised, i didn't expect getting one this early.
Especially with the last relapse. I thought maybe it's going to take at least two weeks of monk mode to have one.
Maybe
it's because i didn't binge watch that filth. Who knows??! It could be...
1 wet dream.
Woke up this morning with wet boxers. I was surprised, i didn't expect getting one this early.
Especially with the last relapse. I thought maybe it's going to take at least two weeks of monk mode to have one.
Maybe
it's because i didn't binge watch that filth. Who knows??! It could be...
Blondie
Respected Member
That's great news brother. That could very well be. A relapse is one thing, but a full on binge is quite another.Maybe
Keep rocking it as always.
Much love
cookiemonster
Well-Known Member
How's it going?
cookiemonster
Well-Known Member
I've been there multiple times. One thing that I think would have helped me would have been to keep posting on the forum every day. It's harder to keep relapsing when you have to update every day with how things are going. When not posting, it's so easy to relapse back-to-back because it feels like one continual relapse and not multiple.
Sending you support and hope to see you with a Day 1 post soon.
Sending you support and hope to see you with a Day 1 post soon.
Shit happens. Pick up where you left off and carry onNot good at all man. I relapsed, not once or twice. But multiple times.
I'm speechless.
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GBS
Respected Member
Keep going friend. You have got this. As @cookiemonster says, possibly try a short daily post on here. It’s just a realy good habit and I promise to read every word you write.
Ezel
Respected Member
Thank you guys for the encouragement and the kind words. Your support means a lot. after two weeks from the last relapse that I didn’t binge on. My porn demon wasn’t satisfied at all with that short session, bec I managed to get out and not indulge in that filth.
But what I saw in that relapse was more than enough to get me to go crazy cuz I was constantly bombarded with urges left and right. And also on top of that, it was the final semester exams, I was under a lot of pressure and stress.
And just four days ago I was home alone. And you all know what that means. It was the perfect environment to say fuq this shyt. And i wish i didn’t but i did. And there’s no way around it.
Im gonna take your advice fellas and keep updating my journal daily to keep my head in the game.
I found these great reboot stories collected by your brain on porn website, and i’m going to start sharing them on here whenever i can to keep me accountable and for the other guys on here also to let them know that there is still hope and a way out of this filth.
Man, not only the things you do are what define you as a man, but also the things you chose to not do. Like this filth for example. Don’t watch porn, don’t masturbate. Don’t waste that semen and life force cuz it took a lot of energy and time to create it. Don’t go on social media cuz it always starts there, every relapse I had social media played a major role in it. Don’t ignore your workouts, Avoid substituting one addiction for another, such as excessive gaming, substance abuse, or compulsive gambling, Seek balance and moderation in all areas of your life. Avoid engaging in sexual fantasy. Avoid triggering environments: Stay away from places, websites, or events that may tempt you to engage in porn.
Man this internet thing can be a curse sometimes, i even wish if i was born before this IT and tech revolution. But like future said : It’s an evil world we live in, but hey, I’ma keep livin’.
Peace.
Ezel.
But what I saw in that relapse was more than enough to get me to go crazy cuz I was constantly bombarded with urges left and right. And also on top of that, it was the final semester exams, I was under a lot of pressure and stress.
And just four days ago I was home alone. And you all know what that means. It was the perfect environment to say fuq this shyt. And i wish i didn’t but i did. And there’s no way around it.
Im gonna take your advice fellas and keep updating my journal daily to keep my head in the game.
I found these great reboot stories collected by your brain on porn website, and i’m going to start sharing them on here whenever i can to keep me accountable and for the other guys on here also to let them know that there is still hope and a way out of this filth.
Man, not only the things you do are what define you as a man, but also the things you chose to not do. Like this filth for example. Don’t watch porn, don’t masturbate. Don’t waste that semen and life force cuz it took a lot of energy and time to create it. Don’t go on social media cuz it always starts there, every relapse I had social media played a major role in it. Don’t ignore your workouts, Avoid substituting one addiction for another, such as excessive gaming, substance abuse, or compulsive gambling, Seek balance and moderation in all areas of your life. Avoid engaging in sexual fantasy. Avoid triggering environments: Stay away from places, websites, or events that may tempt you to engage in porn.
Man this internet thing can be a curse sometimes, i even wish if i was born before this IT and tech revolution. But like future said : It’s an evil world we live in, but hey, I’ma keep livin’.
Peace.
Ezel.