Finally, I'm doing this…
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It takes time to retrain your brain, Ezel. Be patient and compassionate with yourself. If the All Merciful can be compassionate on us, who are we to beat ourselves up?
Dust off, and go for it. Every streak, no matter how lengthy or not, is an exercise in retraining our brain to live without our false-crutches.
Be blessed, brother!
Dust off, and go for it. Every streak, no matter how lengthy or not, is an exercise in retraining our brain to live without our false-crutches.
Be blessed, brother!
Ezel
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day 2.
thanks @Phineas 808 for the kind words. god bless you.
thanks @Phineas 808 for the kind words. god bless you.
Blondie
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You got this champ. You're still here. You're still fighting. That's all that matters.
I know having gone through this recently again, that the closer you are the harder it is at first. It's been a year ago this week that I blew my big streak, and after that, I blew it off and on again for a month, then of course, blew it again on new years. You just have to push through those first couple of weeks/month and the journey does get easier. Trust me.
Pray, fast, and try to rethink whatever things you might do that makes the temptation even worse at the beginning., and, set off from there. And as @Phineas 808 said, be merciful with yourself. Think of the man you and want to be, and focus on that and NOT the guy who slips once in a while.
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I know having gone through this recently again, that the closer you are the harder it is at first. It's been a year ago this week that I blew my big streak, and after that, I blew it off and on again for a month, then of course, blew it again on new years. You just have to push through those first couple of weeks/month and the journey does get easier. Trust me.
Pray, fast, and try to rethink whatever things you might do that makes the temptation even worse at the beginning., and, set off from there. And as @Phineas 808 said, be merciful with yourself. Think of the man you and want to be, and focus on that and NOT the guy who slips once in a while.
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Blondie
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You da man! I fasted once for five days for religious reasons and I can definitely relate to this. I remember how my priorities changed in doing it, because all you can think about is "When is the next meal?" There's nothing about "What nonsense can I do for myself when I'm starving!"
It's a peaceful chaos that's for sure.
Keep it up, friend.
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It's a peaceful chaos that's for sure.
Keep it up, friend.
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Ezel
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i screwed up yesterday night. i was stressed the fuck out to the bone about the interview i had today's morning to get into the master's program.
luckily it did go well. i didn't screw that up as well. it looks like i'm searching for an excuse so i can justify my relapse. trust me i'm not.
what i did is wrong, i didn't watch any hardcore porn just some soft porn on youtube. at first i didn't get any reaction from my body, he was like " cmon man are you serious, not this again. are you going to keep this cycle alive for the rest of your life, grow for god's sake". but it was too late to listen, my brain was soaked in dopamine.
luckily it did go well. i didn't screw that up as well. it looks like i'm searching for an excuse so i can justify my relapse. trust me i'm not.
what i did is wrong, i didn't watch any hardcore porn just some soft porn on youtube. at first i didn't get any reaction from my body, he was like " cmon man are you serious, not this again. are you going to keep this cycle alive for the rest of your life, grow for god's sake". but it was too late to listen, my brain was soaked in dopamine.
Ezel
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day 6.
thank you guys for checking in, i'm still struggling to get a good streak going. but i'm doing my best, probably it's because of the stress i'm facing lately with the enrollement in the master's program. lucky me i made it though. out of 400 candidates i was one of the 35 that got in. i was number 34 lol. so close phew....
thanks again @Alexey @Blondie. keep pushing brothers.
thank you guys for checking in, i'm still struggling to get a good streak going. but i'm doing my best, probably it's because of the stress i'm facing lately with the enrollement in the master's program. lucky me i made it though. out of 400 candidates i was one of the 35 that got in. i was number 34 lol. so close phew....
thanks again @Alexey @Blondie. keep pushing brothers.
Ezel
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who knew, a college drop out who went through shitty jobs, just to realize that his place isn't there. goes back to college and now i'm in graduate school. man, it was so freaking worth it, nothing happens just like that, it was god's plan all along.
thanks partner. your words mean a lot to me. from the bottom of my heart. i appreciate you.
it's all love.
i know we could never meet, but i tell you one thing this forum is one of the best things that ever happened to me.
after all something good came out of something bad. go figure.
thanks @Blondie
thanks partner. your words mean a lot to me. from the bottom of my heart. i appreciate you.
it's all love.
i know we could never meet, but i tell you one thing this forum is one of the best things that ever happened to me.
after all something good came out of something bad. go figure.
thanks @Blondie
Ezel
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day 15 (monk mode).
hey @Alexey thanks for stopping by lol. i'm doing just fine man, some urges from here and there come out from time to time, but i'm still pushing.
started the first semester of the graduate school, the schedule is packed from the start, but i like that way, it keeps me busy and frees my mind from porn even if it was for a little bit.
i still have to work on my stress management cuz when i get stresses that's when i fall down and relieve the stress with p. i have to sort that out one way or another.
also got back to my routine of fasting 2 days/week and training cali basics for 6 days/week if it's possible of course. the last day of the week i play soccer with some old friends at the beach. just looking at the beach can do wonders, it clears my mind and gets me some fresh air.
so far so good. we keep fighting that's all that matters right now...
hey @Alexey thanks for stopping by lol. i'm doing just fine man, some urges from here and there come out from time to time, but i'm still pushing.
started the first semester of the graduate school, the schedule is packed from the start, but i like that way, it keeps me busy and frees my mind from porn even if it was for a little bit.
i still have to work on my stress management cuz when i get stresses that's when i fall down and relieve the stress with p. i have to sort that out one way or another.
also got back to my routine of fasting 2 days/week and training cali basics for 6 days/week if it's possible of course. the last day of the week i play soccer with some old friends at the beach. just looking at the beach can do wonders, it clears my mind and gets me some fresh air.
so far so good. we keep fighting that's all that matters right now...