Finally, I'm doing this…

Ezel

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day 34.

hey @Blondie good to hear from you my friend. man you checked in on the right time as always. i had some massive urges this day, but i managed to push through. i'm getting myself busy as mush as possible, training cali, fasting 2 days, studying, college, improving myself...

but sometimes it can backfire, especially when i get stressed, so my brain looks for that cheap dopamine hit to forget about it and numb itself.
luckily today i did remind myself what's on stake if i took the easy way out, this master's degree i'm working on, and all the training at the gym and the semen that's been accumulating inside my body so it may possibly heal me in one way or another, i still get wet dreams, man one night i had maybe 3 or 2 wet dreams in a row, i don't know what that was about. i don't even recall the dream that got my body to act like that.
my dreams are still unclear so there is still a lot of work to be done.

this is just the tip of the iceberg, a lot has been going on lately. thank you for stopping by champ. keep doing your thing
 

Ezel

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hey blondie man, college is going great. unfortunately i screwed it up this sunday.
whenever i start a streak i tell mysefl, this is it. i'm getting out of this shit hole. just to find myself back to it sooner than i thought.
 
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Blondie

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Hey @Ezel. Great to hear that college is going great.
unfortunately i screwed it up this sunday.
whenever i start a streak i tell mysefl, this is it. i'm getting out of this shit hole. just to find myself back to it sooner than i thought.
It's okay brother. Your making great strides in your life, which is a big part of solving this problem in the long run. I think you and I are alike when it comes to the thought process that it's either on or off with no in-between, but there is a great difference looking at porn here and there, and all the time, like we both used to do. The former is considerably better. One day at a time. I don't know if you've read Atomic Habits before, but I started reading it, and think it's pretty great. I wrote a little post about it on my thread if you wish to get a feel for it.

Love you man,
Blondie
 

Ezel

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Hey @Ezel. Great to hear that college is going great.

It's okay brother. Your making great strides in your life, which is a big part of solving this problem in the long run. I think you and I are alike when it comes to the thought process that it's either on or off with no in-between, but there is a great difference looking at porn here and there, and all the time, like we both used to do. The former is considerably better. One day at a time. I don't know if you've read Atomic Habits before, but I started reading it, and think it's pretty great. I wrote a little post about it on my thread if you wish to get a feel for it.

Love you man,
Blondie
oh man, you're right about having the same thought process. i'm actually reading atomic habits, and it's been an interesting read.
 
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