Finally, I'm doing this…

[Taylor11]

You've got this, man.

 

[Blondie]

I'm glad to hear you're doing well in general @Ezel, sometimes, that's all we can ask for.

Don't be too hard on yourself, and remember, you're still my hero.

Best brother.

 

[Taylor11]

Hope you have a good week, man. You've got this.

 

[Ezel]

Hope you have a good week, man. You've got this.

Thank you freedom. I'm doing great brother. Hoping things are going great on your side as well.

 

[GBS]

Really nice to see you back here @Ezel - never forget we have your back whatever becomes.

 

[Ezel]

Really nice to see you back here @Ezel - never forget we have your back whatever becomes.

thank you sir. i appreciate your support. stay blessed.

 

[Taylor11]

How are you doing man? Hope all is well.

 

[Ezel]

How are you doing man? Hope all is well.

Hey freedom. I'm doing great man. I hope everything is well on your side. Thanks for checking in .

 

[Taylor11]

Have a good week, man. Hope all is well. You've got this.

 

[Ezel]

Have a good week, man. Hope all is well. You've got this.

Thank you freedom for the kind words. I hope the same for you brother. God bless you man.

 

[GBS]

How are you doing @Ezel ? Miss you, man.

 

[Blondie]

I second @GBS, @Ezel. This place is not quite the same without you.

 

[Ezel]

Hello fellas, thanks for checking in. I'm doing well. Thanks for the support. And as always it's so nice hearing from great men like the two of you.
@Blondie @GBS thanks again.

 

[Blondie]

Keep fighting the fight brother! I hope you're doing well.

 

[Ezel]

Keep fighting the fight brother! I hope you're doing well.

yo partner, doing good. i have been busy lately with this last semester exams.
i hope things are going well on your side as always. thanks for stopping by.

 

[Ezel]

day 0.

i have deleted all my social media except youtube, it has useful things of course, but it can be the little straw that could break the camel's back.
i know it's not youtube, it's me. i'm not trying to avoid accountability, like if youtube had pulled a gun to my head and forced me to watch something provacative...

the algorithm can be a bliss at times and suggest useful content, but at times when you are stressed and tired it could get dangerous if it suggests something that could push you down the slide...

i'm trying to be balanced, yes i thought about deleting youtube, a lot of times, but juggling too many addictions at ones, can be too much for your brain to handle, i need to put a plan to get me out of this. it's also frustrating when the same brain that's writing this and blames you when you watch p, tells you to watch it when the conditions are met or if it's bored. yes i know they are not the same brains, there is the primitive brain and the concious brain...

but sometimes it's really hard to stay conscience all the time and not fall to your automatic behaviour where everything is easy but not for so long. you will snap out of it sooner or later , telling yourself why the hell did i give that monkey the steering wheel and look where we are now, we are in this hole that my conscious brain is thinking how to control the other brain as we are getting out both safely...

just me thinking out loud, that's all. today is a new day, a new start, let's make it count...

 

[Ezel]

day 1.

 

[Taylor11]

How you doing bro?