Day 7 Need Support {restart}

@arun

Member
Hi All. Iam Arun 22 years old. Have been to porn since 16. But it became an addiction after my 18s and identified it at my 20. Since then iam trying this that to quit porn and lead a real life. But somehow the addiction grew deeper. I experienced less excitement on real things, erection was only for porn. Couple of months before I could do 5 days-10days streaks with some relapses. And the best i could do was 22 days. But now condition is worse iam struggling everyday to quit Porn. At morning I would have a strong mind to quit but at night I became defenceless. So I did tao everyday. Iam suffering. But Today I will start a change, the pain, struggles i face are worthy. It's for a good cause. Good Fortune. I need a better life. Be with me.
 

Senpar

Member
Hi Arun!!! I understand your pain, I passed for the same situation, but I delayed to perceive the problem as you perceived! It's far from too late for you, you will thanks yourself for that you're doing today!

I suggest to do other activities as exercises; meditation; reading (that I'm not doing anyway; eat good food and some supplements that helps your testosterone (search on Google or talk to me later),; do kegel exercises if it makes you feel bettert (I'm doing and I didn't feel so much difference yet) and, the most important, socialize!
 

@arun

Member
Hi Arun!!! I understand your pain, I passed for the same situation, but I delayed to perceive the problem as you perceived! It's far from too late for you, you will thanks yourself for that you're doing today!

I suggest to do other activities as exercises; meditation; reading (that I'm not doing anyway; eat good food and some supplements that helps your testosterone (search on Google or talk to me later),; do kegel exercises if it makes you feel bettert (I'm doing and I didn't feel so much difference yet) and, the most important, socialize!
Sure. But sometimes I lack motivation.
 

@arun

Member
Iam on my 3rd day. But yesterday I edged severely. This thought arose in me since I edged heavily it's ok to mastrubate. But somehow i successfully avoided that. Iam grateful for that. I like to do it better without edging. Yeah I can do it. I have to avoid my tendency to use the phone for this at the night time. There are some good things to read. I will do that instead.
And I will learn new courses.


Another thing I felt is iam ok with interaction but some where I have anxiety or a fear in talking or starting a conversation. I may like to talk to a person standing there but the thought of what they think how to do it perfectly without boring or making a impression draws me backward.

However when talking with others iam feeling better. Yes I exist. I want to bukid new healthy friendships.
 

@arun

Member
Today iam on my 4th day. Iam happy that i never edged for this day. I feel more energetic and never felt drained as before. I did a lot of works to help my family but still not weak. There wasn't much hardships this day. I did some steps to improve my communication skills. Iam grateful for that.

Tomorrow will be a new day for me. Iam stepping to 5th day.

I always try to watch inspiring or insightful interesting videos regarding the addiction to keep me reminded of my disease.

If you have any tips or new resources, feel free to share it with me.
 

@arun

Member
Hi. Iam on my 6th day. Today I feel intense urge from morning. I took my phone to edge, but I didn't edge. Yes it's true i did some actions that gonna lead to a edge. But somehow i managed to escape from it for two times.
Sometimes I feel like, iam not able bear this let's leave the no fap for this time and next time iam gonna overcome this struggle.

It's a mere justification, if i dont overcome the struggle now then how can I do it for the next time. I had such experience for many times, like postponing the streak by surrendering to the urges. I think it's the right time to take action if I didn't act now I will postpone this next time, failing to face the situation.

This struggle is necessary in path of recovery. I must accept it, embrace it and overcome the situation in a Healthy way.

Share your experiences, if it helps.
 
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Deleted member 27008

Guest
Hello my friend. yes it's nice to put the phone aside in times of urge. However, we should not forget that we can easily reach the phone when the urge is too strong. I prefer to go out and walk. fast walking. I also listen to music with headphones. You cannot pmo even if you want to while walking on the street. no matter how strong the impulse. this has helped with most of my 15 day series. I relapsed on my waking days around 5 am on the 7th, 15th, or 21st, usually due to the need for dopamine. It's too early, I can't walk. Now I'm trying to develop solutions for this. walking calms you down, is good for your health, helps you produce bdnf. I hope you can build a pmo-free life, man.
 

@arun

Member
Hello my friend. yes it's nice to put the phone aside in times of urge. However, we should not forget that we can easily reach the phone when the urge is too strong. I prefer to go out and walk. fast walking. I also listen to music with headphones. You cannot pmo even if you want to while walking on the street. no matter how strong the impulse. this has helped with most of my 15 day series. I relapsed on my waking days around 5 am on the 7th, 15th, or 21st, usually due to the need for dopamine. It's too early, I can't walk. Now I'm trying to develop solutions for this. walking calms you down, is good for your health, helps you produce bdnf. I hope you can build a pmo-free life, man.
Thanks a lot my friend. @Resurrection
 

@arun

Member
On Day 7 night time I edged. My 6 days of edging sobriety restarted. However iam happy i didn't Mastrubate. From this day my struggles are increasing. I have to be more careful. I have to avoid all triggers and edging. Back to Hard mode.
 

@arun

Member
Iam on my 10th day. Hurray!
How ever i edged one time after 6 days, took action for edging in some days but i didn't edge. I quit my thoughts then.

Thanks to all of you. Keep supporting me. I can support you guys as well. There are some more changes both positive and negative. I will share that next day.

Wish you all the best.
 

@arun

Member
Hi all. Iam on my 11th day. Iam extremely happy for this day. Long story short, i think iam feeling a lot better than days with PMO. NOW I feel like I have more energy embedded in me. Iam more interested to talk to another person, moreover my fear decreased or iam able to take necessary steps to overcome fear somehow.

I don't want to think about porn. Because if I do, i will edge, that may cost me a lot.
Iam a way better than before then why should I think about such things. Even i thought I compel me to not to edge.

I don't know when withdrawal symptoms gonna ... I'm prepared for that. I should be happy even those things happen because it's a proof that iam doing things in a right way.
 

@arun

Member
I had a strong urge and i edged. Iam doing it again wrong I want to correct me. I want to win this. Iam not gonna leave no fap. Urge is in me. Iam controlling it. Oh My Master help me to get along the right path.
 

@arun

Member
It's my 12th day. Strong urge eventually i edged. Sometimes iam not able to resist it. This type of urge is forcing me to edge. Some how I escaped from resetting the journey. Help me if you have anything in your mind.
 
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Deleted member 27008

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dude, if you can tell us in which situations the dangers arise, I think we can help. Do movies, TV shows, social media or girls on the street put your situation in danger? You are progressing well. please don't let your guard down.
 

@arun

Member
dude, if you can tell us in which situations the dangers arise, I think we can help. Do movies, TV shows, social media or girls on the street put your situation in danger? You are progressing well. please don't let your guard down.
It's not the triggers. But sometimes a strong urge or feeling to do gap arises. I feel a strong energy to fap. I feel like if I didn't iam blocking some energy.

But this feelings are leading me to edge {take a peek}. It happened two times.
 
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Deleted member 27008

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You know this is very normal. You are now in the days when these wars will begin. I also started slowly today. I definitely plan not to leave myself empty on the weekend and to deal with something all the time. The biggest trigger, the biggest danger is being idle, my friend. we must have something to do. We must always be busy mentally, if not physically. especially when the urges are intensified. I subscribed to a lecture series on youtube. I will continue it at the weekend when I feel free. I will definitely take a walk. Please make plans for the weekend according to your own tastes and lifestyle, my friend. should have 1-2 guns in hand for emergencies. You shouldn't be thinking about which weapon to pull out when the war starts. The gun should be with you. or you will die. Don't look for a gun when the urge comes. be clear what to do. looks dangerous this weekend. for me too. Let's do this together.
 

@arun

Member
Iam sad and full of resentments today. I failed myself. How many times you failed? Me, countless including this time. In this 12th day or after this 12th day I failed. The no fap streak is resetted now.

But this time I didn't edge that much in the streak. I felt more energy than previous streaks this time. I know iam not recovered yet. The journey restarts. But iam not standing where I was before 12days Happy for that.

I will continue this journal from tomorrow. NoFap reset Day 1.


Tips of many memebers helped me to reach to this level. Thanks to all.

Keep supporting.
I won in many days but failed the streak.

I want to win. Recover.
 
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Deleted member 27008

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Sorry for the relapse, mate. I am sure you will do better. Please make your recurrence be short and in one session. please read my last post on my diary about this. It is very important that the recurrence be short and that it should not be a long session. so that the benefits do not go away and the next series will be easier. Definitely take a look at my last post and don't pmo for a long time in a row to feed yourself saying I've already relapsed.
 
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