Day 19. It's overall getting easier. There are still ups and downs. There are still times that I have the urge to PMO. But they are fewer and further between. I hope it continues to improve.
At the halfway point, there was a part of me really looking forward to day 28 when I could MO again. And I was concerned about that part of me. But I'm not as preoccupied with it anymore.
It's almost a feeling of zen. I'm better albe to plan for the future, for things I'd like to do and get done. Like I got a bunch of stuff done on my car that I'd been putting off. I feel more able to focus, more capable, more determined. And even through I'm still struggling through the ups and downs of my depression, I feel like the light is beating the dark overall.
Young men, if you're reading this.... QUIT NOW! The sooner the better. You probably don't realize how much this addiction is worsening your anxiety, depression, bad luck with the ladies (or dudes if that's your thing), grades, overall fitness, etc. If I could go back I would have not got hooked. Maybe I could have made porn a healthy part of my life/sex life. I know that that's not an option now. But the sooner you quit, the sooner you can fill that time with exercise and human interaction and learning how to navigate relationships and your sex life. If you want to get laid, there are others out there that are willing to get in bed with you. And the more time you spend on self improvement, the better your odds. If you want a better body, or to be better at math or music or dancing or sports or whatever, you will have so much more time and energy to put into that.
I don't remember where, but I once read a woman's quote about dating in which she called porn, weed, and video games the trifecta of things to avoid in a guy. There's a reason for that.