Pride and joy

EarthWalker

Respected Member
I got that monitor arm at 30 days last time, and the empty second arm is mean-mugging me every day while I try to fit everything on one monitor
Yeah it's silly but it reminds me about the journey and makes me regret my relapses more
Happy to hear this helps you. Hope you get that 2nd monitor - in less than 90 days. Keep it up. Thank you for the considered reply as well.
 
Day 7 of not using porn

Thank you @Blondie and @EarthWalker!
Your words of support always mean a lot

Can't believe it's still only been a week since my last relapse
Really wanna start putting some serious distance between me and porn
Trying to identify as a man who doesn't look at porn
But doesn't feel real when I've only been clean for a week

Kinda good day
Mostly good focus except for a few hours after lunch. Urges mostly low
Lots of work stress but coping
Did chinups/reading/recovery

Sending everyone support
Keep writing in your journals. Always helps to read the thoughts of other men going through this 💪
 

Ezel

Active Member
Day 7 of not using porn

Thank you @Blondie and @EarthWalker!
Your words of support always mean a lot

Can't believe it's still only been a week since my last relapse
Really wanna start putting some serious distance between me and porn
Trying to identify as a man who doesn't look at porn
But doesn't feel real when I've only been clean for a week

Kinda good day
Mostly good focus except for a few hours after lunch. Urges mostly low
Lots of work stress but coping
Did chinups/reading/recovery

Sending everyone support
Keep writing in your journals. Always helps to read the thoughts of other men going through this 💪
You got this my man, just hang in there...
 

Orbiter

Well-Known Member
Great job Respecting. The week seems to have definitely had it's share of challenges but it sounds like, thanks in no small part to those routines & frameworks you've got in place, you're building some positive momentum again.

Another great thing here is that after the last lapse you did not binge and you did not give up. Instead you got back on the course straight away and here you are a week later. This is something we all know is easier said than done and I hope you took time to give yourself a little credit for it.

Keep up the great work!
 
Day 8 of not using porn

Thank you @Ezel and @Orbiter!
Really appreciate your support
Orbiter - I agree that not going straight back to binging after the latest relapse has been a step forward
Feels like progress is slow, but on the other hand, I've only had 4 PMO in last three months or so (quitzilla says average abstinence period is 26 days)
Still got a LOT of work to do, but it's better than before I joined RN (worst times it was every day, other times at least once or twice a week)
And this is on top of probably the most stressful time of my life in terms of work
Couldn't have done it without the community - so thank you to everyone

Anyway was out for most of the day today and catching up on work now so not much time for posting

Quick weekly roundup:
Exercise 0/2
Chinups 7/7
Recovery work 3/7 (assuming I do it tonight before bed)
Reading 5/7

No progress on men's group
Slow progress on working in living room in evening - maybe 1 or 2/7 (felt too busy with work)
Worked 6 days (two half days off)

Overall not so good - feel like my focus on positive change slipped
Must try harder next week

Stay strong RN community - sending you all support on your journeys 💪
 
Day 9 of not using porn

Posting a little earlier than usual today - just felt like it
Focus wasn't so good this morning but getting over it now
Dealing with a physical thing today that's making it hard to concentrate
Kinda rare for me - despite all the ways my life is f**ked up, my health is usually one solid point
I'll see how it goes and maybe visit the doc if it doesn't improve over the next day or so

Did my reading and recovery work - will do chinups later
Low porn urges - might just be because of this thing I got going on though 🤷‍♂️

Stay strong RN community. Keep writing in your journals and stay porn-free 💪
 

Jswizzle

Active Member
Day 9 of not using porn

Posting a little earlier than usual today - just felt like it
Focus wasn't so good this morning but getting over it now
Dealing with a physical thing today that's making it hard to concentrate
Kinda rare for me - despite all the ways my life is f**ked up, my health is usually one solid point
I'll see how it goes and maybe visit the doc if it doesn't improve over the next day or so

Did my reading and recovery work - will do chinups later
Low porn urges - might just be because of this thing I got going on though 🤷‍♂️

Stay strong RN community. Keep writing in your journals and stay porn-free 💪
PR, glad to see you're still working and trying. Recovery isn't about the short game, it's about the long game. You're playing the long game my friend. Lapses happen. Keep fighting. Reading and doing the work is where change happens and sticks. Counting days is easy. Doing the work to change your behavior is where we change. Love your perseverance.

Your friend in arms,

Jswizz
 
Day 10 of not using porn

Thank you for the support @Blondie, @Phineas 808, and @Jswizzle!
Definitely a huge help

Jswizzle, inspired by your stoic readings, I have been listening to How to Think Like a Roman Emperor
Realizing my idea of stoicism (Stoicism?) was very simplistic - it goes deep
I am not there yet, but I can see how it could become a blueprint for how to live your entire live
Inspiring seeing your progress too 💪

Urges low today
Still dealing with the physical issue - made an appointment to see the doc tomorrow
But also finished a big project yesterday so work stress is lower, which helps a LOT with urges
Had a lie-in so finally felt better rested too
Didn't do chinups yesterday in the end - but it was a conscious decision because of this health thing, so I am okay with that
Probably won't do them today either
Haven't done reading or recovery yet but will do them later
Still slacking on finding a men's group and exercise - but if I have more time now I can actually start working on these goals

Stay strong RN community - always inspiring reading your journals
It's a long road, but at least we've got company 💪
 
Day 11 of not using porn

Took the morning off to visit the doc
Thankfully nothing serious - this health issue should be gone in a few days
Got back in the afternoon - focus kinda weak with strong desire to procrastinate
Porn urges low, but I know they can strike when I'm procrastinating, so gotta be vigilant
Eventually regained my focus midafternoon and was smooth sailing from then
Did my chinups - still got reading/recovery work to do

Stay strong and porn-free RN community. Remember we're doing this for our future selves 💪
 
Day 12 of not using porn

Thank you for your support @Blondie, @EarthWalker, and @downhillfromhere!
The community is what makes RN so great. Hope you are all doing well in your own journeys too

Good day today - work stress eased off so I had a lie-in and did some exercise in the morning (long overdue)
Focus was again weak getting back to work in the afternoon. Porn urges low but strong desire to procrastinate
Eventually got back on track but need to work on this
Did my recovery work and chinups. Will do reading before bed

Stay strong RN community and keep updating your journals
Always inspiring to see the progress of other people on this journey 💪
 
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