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Ezel

Ezel

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Keep killing it respecting, I like that all your priorities are In order, it shows that you are really committed to leave porn, if you keep going like this, then it's only a matter of time until porn don't even show up on your radar...

Sending love and wishing you all the best.
 
particularly_respecting

particularly_respecting

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Day 20 of not using porn

Thank you @downhillfromhere and @Ezel
Really appreciate the support!
Yeah trying to work on my goals - it's been slow progress, but I guess I am making small improvements 💪

Chopped more wood today. I have a big pile of logs outside the house and a small pile of firewood
Nice to see the log pile get a bit smaller and the firewood pile get a bit bigger these past few days
Also did my chinups and recovery work. Still got reading to do, though I aim to do it before bed (but missed last night in the end :rolleyes:)

Focus up and down today - better than last weekend but not as good as yesterday
Taking morning off for yardwork tomorrow. Will be nice to spend some time outside

Hit my mini-target of 20 days. Next target 30 days. If I hit this I'm getting a book to celebrate
Stay strong RN community and keep writing in your journals. Always helps to read the stories of other men on this journey
 
Blondie

Blondie

Respected Member
You're doing great Particularly.

Nice job with that wood chopping. I was going to get a fire going and chop some wood a few days ago myself, but then it got hot here :confused:, thus, I did other less manly chores! I think your idea of getting a book at 30 days is a good one. Something to keep you motivated always helps!

Best man, keep it up.
 
particularly_respecting

particularly_respecting

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Day 21 of not using porn

Thank you @Blondie, @Ezel, and @fa84 for the support - it means a lot!

Good day today. Slept in then was chopping wood and doing other yardwork
Got a behind on actual work, but I'm okay with that. Felt good to get outside and do something productive
Focus also pretty good when I started actual work in the afternoon
Did chinups and recovery work - hope to do reading before bed (but missed it last night, making two nights in a row I missed it)

Stay strong RN community. I'm rooting for all of you 💪
 
particularly_respecting

particularly_respecting

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Day 22 of not using porn

Thank you @fa84 and @Dungalef!

Yes, this community Is like a net. It works only if we support ourselves

For me the experience of other people is crucial. Every time (i don t know way) my brain think "you are the only one with this particular issue" every time a discover later literally the same experience in other
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Agree 100% fa84. Helps a lot reading other guys' journals
PMO is a private and shame-filled addiction and it can make us think we're the only ones going through it
But I think MANY men are suffering from this - we are not alone

Did my chinups/reading/recovery work today
Focus so so - up and down

Weekly roundup
chinups 7/7
reading 3/7 (not good - not sure why I struggled with it this week)
recovery work 7/7

exercise 4/2 (mostly chopping wood - pretty pleased)
men's group - actually did research and emailed some potential groups. Not started yet but at least I finally got the ball rolling
working in living room at night 2/7 (not good - struggled with this one)
working six days a week - achieved (2 half days off)

Overall feel cautiously positive about this week
Focus was rocky at the start but overall not bad
Porn urges felt under control too
Want to make sure I do my reading and stay in the living room at night instead of disappearing to the office

Also cautiously hoping for low stress week at work next week
Might be an opportunity to lock in some good progress

Might mix up my daily/weekly goals next week, assuming I make it through the week clean

Stay strong RN community. Sending you all support on your journeys
Never forget how much you want this positive change 💪
 
particularly_respecting

particularly_respecting

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Day 23 of not using porn

Thank you @Ezel! Great to see you making such great progress too

Wife was away and felt some urges today
Also it was raining all day which somehow didn't help, then had one or two frustrations at work
But overall coped okay and maintained my resolve
Wife back tomorrow so things will get easier

Did my chinups and recovery work. Will do reading before bed

Stay strong RN community and keep writing in your journals
Inspirational to see so many men making positive change in their lives 💪
 
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Readytoreboot

Active Member
particularly_respecting said:
Day 23 of not using porn

Thank you @Ezel! Great to see you making such great progress too

Wife was away and felt some urges today
Also it was raining all day which somehow didn't help, then had one or two frustrations at work
But overall coped okay and maintained my resolve
Wife back tomorrow so things will get easier

Did my chinups and recovery work. Will do reading before bed

Stay strong RN community and keep writing in your journals
Inspirational to see so many men making positive change in their lives 💪
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Keep going strong Brother. Youre gonna make it to 30 days in a few, you got this!
 
particularly_respecting

particularly_respecting

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Day 24 of not using porn

Started off today well - a rare break from work so chopped wood and started work on some long overdue projects

Unfortunately dealing with some negative emotions now - had an argument with wife
Kinda sucks - related to a compulsive behavior of hers that we agreed she would stop but she didn't and hoped I wouldn't notice
Not gonna give any specifics here, but wanted to mention it because we talk about forgiveness, understanding, etc., but it's damn hard when you're on the other side
Let's never forget the pain and hurt we caused our partners with our behavior
And even if they were okay with us watching porn, or even if you're single, we still hurt the important people in our lives by not being the best version of ourselves we could around them

Did my chinups/reading/recovery work today, and counting chopping wood as one exercise

Stay strong RN community and remember what's important in life 💪
 
particularly_respecting

particularly_respecting

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Day 25 of not using porn

Made up with wife so that's good
Did some wood chopping, but mainly just using the chainsaw so not counting as exercise
Had a bit of time to work on my project, which was good, although work is picking up again now
Urges low

Did my chinups and reading, will do recovery work later

Not much to say today so keeping it short
Just got my sights set on 30 days

Stay strong RN community - sending you all support in your journeys 💪
 
particularly_respecting

particularly_respecting

Active Member
Day 26 of not using porn

Thank you @Ezel!
Also thank you @Blondie and @Readytoreboot - forgot to mention in my post the day before yesterday but I appreciate all of your support
Makes a huge difference to know we're not on this journey alone

Good day today
Slept in, but was nice to have a lie-in with wife, so I was okay with that
Chopped wood - counting that as exercise
Did my chinups and recovery work, will do reading before bed

Focus not terrible, but pretty distracted at work
At least I was reading wikipedia and blog articles instead of wasting time on reddit or youtube :rolleyes:

Some urges, but under control
Just focusing on getting through the next few days to the big 30

Stay strong RN community. Sending you all support for your own battles 💪
 
Ezel

Ezel

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you got this Particularly, nice work with managing your priorities and controlling your urges😎👏.
sending love, and keep conquering those urges, they don't stand a chance against you champ 🏆🏆.
 
particularly_respecting

particularly_respecting

Active Member
Day 27 of not using porn

Thank you @Ezel!
Always appreciate your support brother - it means a lot

Weird day today. Low energy in the morning
Decided not to bother with work in the morning - did some chores and played guitar
Work has eased off which is great. Happy to be able to take the morning off like today

Still tired in the afternoon but got some work done
Urges kinda strong but under control
Will be spending most of tomorrow with wife, which always helps

Did my chinups/recovery/reading

Really getting back into music lately
Don't know if this is connected to staying off porn
I took about a year or so where I didn't even pick up the guitar and barely even listened to any interesting music (mostly just silence, and sometimes one or two easy albums on repeat)
But over the past few months I am getting back into all my old faves in a big way and playing guitar more too

I've read in others' journals that they experienced something similar, so if so, I'm taking it as a positive sign

Stay strong RN community. I'm rooting for all of you. Let's get back to living the way we were supposed to 💪
 
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