Almost there man. 90 days is real close!
Happy for you!!!!!!!!Day 88 - For the first time in ~10 years I'm truly happy to be alive. There is no existential dread, no self hatred, no insecurity and no crippling self awareness. This feels immense! I had an early offset version of this yesterday but that was nothing compared to this feeling today. I can feel the sunshine within for the first time in so long! It has seeped through every internal window and shone light into the dark, decrepit hallways of depression and melancholy. Today is the first daylight in a VERY long time!
Good luck!!! You got this.. Same with me I’m done with porn and masturbation for life!!!!! It’s just not worth it… Enough is enough!!!!Hi guys, I figured keeping a journal would help me and hopefully others with my recovery. First off, a bit of context:
22 years old
Used PMO since 11 (started off 6 times a day until about 13 when it significantly dropped to twice daily, then from 16 onwards once daily)
Realised I had a problem when I stopped enjoy O with women (never had ED problems but I've had PE issues a few times) and I couldn't MO without thinking of P or sexual thoughts.
About 6 months ago decided to make a change and quit PMO, had a big relapse roughly 6 weeks in and only recently started again.
Currently on day 13.
On my first abstinence from P I had withdrawal symptoms like irritability and on some occasions I even had the shakes. I have had no withdrawal symptoms yet but they will come in time, I am only on day 13 after all. My aim is to reach day 90 with a hard reset (no P, no fantasizing, no looking at bikini pics etc). I intend to never consume P again. In the words of the great Zyzz, we're all gonna make it!
Thank you man! I'm so glad my story is an inspiration to you! I for sure have benefitted from eradicating MO, best of luck brother!So inspiring to ready your posts! You seem so committed and I wish you all the best! I have stopped PMO, but you inspired me to try going without MO. Wish me luck!