particularly_respecting
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Damn sorry to hear that brother - but you're back here posting about it so I think you have the drive within you to succeed
For your question about urges, I think there are different stages
We are like castles. Castles have many layers of defenses
Maybe you know you tend to relapse when you're alone
So try not to be alone - go out to a cafe or to the park or gym or whatever
This is the first layer of defense - the archers on the wall
Now maybe you are alone late at night, so the first defense has been breached
So you make a rule that when you have start to feel urges you phone your partner or play with a pet or take a cold shower or listen to an anti-porn podcast
This is the second layer of defense - the moat around the castle
But maybe you have done all that - but you still have urges
Now it is an emergency - the first and second defenses have been breached
You are under siege and the invaders are closing in
So you have blockers, you come on here and post, you make consequences (if I relapse I'll donate x money to x political party I don't like, etc.), you put your phone and your wifi router in a locked box - whatever it takes
These are your final layers of defense - throwing rocks down at invaders and fighting in the courtyard
Fight tooth and nail to protect your castle - you owe it to yourself!
I went off on one there - maybe I've been watching too much GoT
Don't know if it's helpful at all. I talk big but I'm struggling with exactly the same addiction
Just trying to send some support!
For your question about urges, I think there are different stages
We are like castles. Castles have many layers of defenses
Maybe you know you tend to relapse when you're alone
So try not to be alone - go out to a cafe or to the park or gym or whatever
This is the first layer of defense - the archers on the wall
Now maybe you are alone late at night, so the first defense has been breached
So you make a rule that when you have start to feel urges you phone your partner or play with a pet or take a cold shower or listen to an anti-porn podcast
This is the second layer of defense - the moat around the castle
But maybe you have done all that - but you still have urges
Now it is an emergency - the first and second defenses have been breached
You are under siege and the invaders are closing in
So you have blockers, you come on here and post, you make consequences (if I relapse I'll donate x money to x political party I don't like, etc.), you put your phone and your wifi router in a locked box - whatever it takes
These are your final layers of defense - throwing rocks down at invaders and fighting in the courtyard
Fight tooth and nail to protect your castle - you owe it to yourself!
I went off on one there - maybe I've been watching too much GoT
Don't know if it's helpful at all. I talk big but I'm struggling with exactly the same addiction
Just trying to send some support!