To always start again

viking1234

viking1234

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Day 11.
Everything good so far. Hiking to see the last sun. Quite a bit of work but still finding time to relax. Now I'm really really horny, but still managing to stay clear of PMO. About to try some sex therapy app with my GF, with whom as mentioned we never coincide...
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byebye

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You had so many in and outs but you are still trying to stop it. It's hard to do it with so many triggers around you but you will be successful. Keep trying
 
viking1234

viking1234

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Alrighty...
Long time no see. Again, travelling quite a lot with long days, barely time for anything.
Had my longest streak in the past year maybe: 16 days. Then I relapsed, had another 4 day streak and relapsed today.
Feeling a bit down but still feels like progress in a way. 16 days!
Starting over again.
Viking
 
viking1234

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Day 0 today. Watched a bit of P after 9 days.
I think I have a big vitamin D deficiency with the lack of sun, so I was/am having big mood swings yesterday, which led to PMO. Feeling quite depressed, so I'll checking my levels with the doctor today and might be that I need to take even more supplements.
Either it's the lack of sun or the less amount of PMO that's giving the mood swings, body aches, sadness and general anxiety....
Anybody has experience with this?
Viking
 
viking1234

viking1234

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Watched some yesterday.
I've been feeling quite low lately, still do. Yesterday I had a bit of insomnia and was really excited (had other things in my head) so it was hard to fall asleep.
I don't enjoy anything as I used to. Let's see what the blood check results give back, maybe I'm missing some vitamins, but who knows, might be porn as well.
I want to change my life, once and for all!
Viking
 
viking1234

viking1234

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Relapsed again.
I went from loads of work to loads of free time, and this happens when I'm bored...
I have to pull myself together and keep moving on!
Viking
 
viking1234

viking1234

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Ok, last week I've been a total mess. Watched 4 days and managed not to finish, then again and again.
I just relapsed for the second time this week and feels like I'm back in square one.
Viking
 
viking1234

viking1234

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After yesterday's 134697914 relapse, I decided I'm going to take this sh seriously. No more smartphone (even with blockers, I know the workaround), meditating 15 min per day whenever possible as a start. Not counting the days but really trying to make it work without thinking 'oh, it's day 4, now it's close'
Cheers
 
viking1234

viking1234

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Alrighty - pretty rough week. Managed 4 days without anything, a bit of browsing today + starting things but NO! I will overcome this.
Trying to meditate every day, so far I couldn't do it the one day.
Need. To. Be. Strong.
 
viking1234

viking1234

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Well... Again, day 0
I try to take this seriously, but it feels like I have zero willpower.
I'm gonna keep trying, always. But still... How do I manage this?
 
viking1234

viking1234

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Well, it's been a while...
and it's been a rollercoaster.
I'm taking a chance and I'm trying to change careers on top of working a lot - that's been quite stressful.
Unfortunately PMO almost every week for the past month. I'm trying to stay away from the phone and manage quite OK but if I'm tired it's super hard to hold my awareness and stop myself from doing any sh**.

I'm not giving up though... I don't know how much my word is worth anymore because every time I say 'not anymore' I still do it. At least I know I'll try and keep trying all my life if that's necessary.
Viking
 
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