This is good.I read a neuroscientist saying that when you get an urge you have 5 seconds to decide what to do, after which time, you're already in, so I'm trying to replace this with a good habit. Tough.
Nice job on staying off of it for a long time. Anything is better than nothing.It feels better than other times though, since it was way less than the usual (10 minutes) and with kind of soft P, also better in that sense.
I feel I learnt a lot this time, for the first time I could control my urges and face them, and that's huge.
What about “porn is not an option“ as a mantra?Thank you for the support, Blondie and Androg.
Bad news today - I was not quick enough and ended up relapsing to half hour P.
There was a point when I realised I was about to have an urge, but went all in and couldn't resist.
Need to keep trying...
Hi @viking1234.I mentioned it once to my GF, the problem is she doesn't seem to mind that I touch myself, and she's OK with P. I think she doesn't realise though how big this is for me...
I get this. Makes sense.I like the idea, Blondie, I'm just terribly scared how she'll react to the whole and I'm not sure I dare to (yet?).
Withdrawal is miserable. But the addicted brain argues that everything is hopeless, and often it wins, because things feel hopeless when your dopamine sensitivity is decreased. As you become more sensitive to it, everyday pleasures once again make life feel like it’s worth living. Stay strong!.Day 6.
OK so far. Still with some mood swings, everything seems negatively extreme. Either extremely boring, extremely frustrating or extremely something, but not extremely nice. I know that's progress though, coming back to my center and normal balance.
The frustration keeps telling me to 'just PMO since it's not worth it' but I'm trying not to listen to the stupid voice in my head.
On a way, seems like I'm going crazy but I know I have to keep fighting.
True. Another truth. No matter the amount of naked ladies you see on the internet you aren't actually having sex with them. You aren't actually getting anything. It's all bullshit.So... turns out you were right, Androg, you have to be extra careful when something like that happens.
after a 10 day streak with a small hiccup, I relapsed this morning to P.
I won't give up.
Things I learnt this time: no matter the small amount of naked ladies you see using any kind of reasoning 'just to see what's new' or 'it won't be long, only 10 minutes', it doesn't end up well.