theway1002
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I'm a worst case scenario who has had PIED my entire adult life. I believe I need 1-2 year to make any sort of recovery. I've tried everything to try and recovery, from installing blockers to establishing a rigid workout routine. I've even have accountability software on my PC AND Phone which my therapist uses to monitor my online activity. My longest clean streak is 7 months. But I always end up relapsing one way or another.
My libido is completely killed, so avoiding PMO should be easy, right? The reality is that I'm a highly neurotic person, I had mild OCD as a kid, but I believe the underlying anxiety still persists. I have extreme trouble controlling my mind and impulses when I'm anxious (which happens easily), and I end up chasing the dopamine hit.
I'm wondering if I should take a low dose medication (zoloft?) for a year to manage my anxiety. I think this could be a tool in my recovery, by alleviating the anxiety that leads to relapses. The idea is that once I reboot, I'll stop the medication.
I hate the idea of using medication to recover, but I'm getting desperate and I feel the window in my life is closing, which is leading me increasingly depressed. Maybe this is worth a try? The only other option is that I quit my job/life and live on a farm or Buddhist monastery for 2 years.
My libido is completely killed, so avoiding PMO should be easy, right? The reality is that I'm a highly neurotic person, I had mild OCD as a kid, but I believe the underlying anxiety still persists. I have extreme trouble controlling my mind and impulses when I'm anxious (which happens easily), and I end up chasing the dopamine hit.
I'm wondering if I should take a low dose medication (zoloft?) for a year to manage my anxiety. I think this could be a tool in my recovery, by alleviating the anxiety that leads to relapses. The idea is that once I reboot, I'll stop the medication.
I hate the idea of using medication to recover, but I'm getting desperate and I feel the window in my life is closing, which is leading me increasingly depressed. Maybe this is worth a try? The only other option is that I quit my job/life and live on a farm or Buddhist monastery for 2 years.