Yesterday I looked up some images on Instagram. Lingerie pictures that I had stumbled over a couple of days before (ad). That’s really dangerous behaviour for me, and I will take this seriously. Sharing this here in order to be honest about it and stop the behaviour at once.
I have used Instagram sparingly to share and connect with friends for the last 40 days, but now that this happened I have deleted it from my phone. For now, it stays gone until I know I have things under control. Phone will also be put away whenever I am home.
On a more positive note, things are still going well! Filling the days with activities either with friends or by myself. Yesterday I went swimming and today I tried rock climbing for the first time in many years.
Catching myself just smiling every now and then, this is a big change in my mood - hoping it will stick!