downhillfromhere
Well-Known Member
Day 8
Feeling pretty good. Mentally, everything feels a lot more stable. I have been focusing a lot on allowing myself to feel negative emotions, to regain some of my emotional range. Trying not to let myself shut down, allow opportunities to pass just because I’m afraid of what will happen if I try. It will be a long road, but I have to start somewhere.
Physically, I think I’m in the best shape of my life. Starting to notice small changes to my body that reflects the ways I have tried to improve myself over the past months.
I never used to work out, ever, and I have suffered for it. Bad posture, low energy, low self-esteem. I would judge others around me who made an effort, without even thinking a second about it. Somehow I would see myself as superior to a person who was out running, hiking or working out. Now I see that was just a manifestation of my own low self-esteem. I needed to put people down in my head, in order to feel better about myself. This is so massively unhelpful and damaging. Putting out bad energy, secretly disliking people for no real reason.
I’m so glad I’m getting past this stage of my life. I need to allow others to be as they wish to be, and try to look at myself more. Forgive myself for my past mistakes, move on and be better right now, today.
Quitting porn is a massive part of this change, for me. I need to make this happen. And if I can take a small stand against the porn industry at the same time, I’m a happy guy.
Feeling pretty good. Mentally, everything feels a lot more stable. I have been focusing a lot on allowing myself to feel negative emotions, to regain some of my emotional range. Trying not to let myself shut down, allow opportunities to pass just because I’m afraid of what will happen if I try. It will be a long road, but I have to start somewhere.
Physically, I think I’m in the best shape of my life. Starting to notice small changes to my body that reflects the ways I have tried to improve myself over the past months.
I never used to work out, ever, and I have suffered for it. Bad posture, low energy, low self-esteem. I would judge others around me who made an effort, without even thinking a second about it. Somehow I would see myself as superior to a person who was out running, hiking or working out. Now I see that was just a manifestation of my own low self-esteem. I needed to put people down in my head, in order to feel better about myself. This is so massively unhelpful and damaging. Putting out bad energy, secretly disliking people for no real reason.
I’m so glad I’m getting past this stage of my life. I need to allow others to be as they wish to be, and try to look at myself more. Forgive myself for my past mistakes, move on and be better right now, today.
Quitting porn is a massive part of this change, for me. I need to make this happen. And if I can take a small stand against the porn industry at the same time, I’m a happy guy.