I had a couple of run-ins with some triggering stuff last week. First time was by accident, then I looked it up a couple of times, I think I mentioned it earlier. Been staying away successfully for two or three days now, so I hope the worst is over there.
Thing is, I definitely noticed that it had less of an effect on me. It was the kind of stuff that I know I’m attracted to - basically just attractive women in lingerie. Some light bondage inspired stuff. I was never really that deviant in my taste, and I can’t say I’m ashamed to being attracted to that. And I know - every image there is carefully posed, lighted, photographed, edited - I know it’s an unrealistic depiction.
But even though I liked what I saw, I didn’t really have a physical reaction to it, it just felt hollow and pointless. And it is just that. I just want to have a real experience for once.
Holding on for as long as I can here. I think it’s a week since my last MO, and fast approaching 60 days porn free!