Porn & Cigarettes

jsin4444

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Hello, and thank you for having me here on your forums. When I was in my early 30s I worked as a server and a bartender which meant many nights of staying up late and often sleeping in until mid-afternoon. I was also suffering quite acutely at the time from social anxieties which could get me quite agitated considering the social nature of my employment. This was also about the time when pornography began to become readily available on the internet for free. I was a regular smoker at the time and so on many nights I found myself staying up till the early hours of the morning smoking cigarettes and watching online porn. I found the experience not only enjoyable because of the amount of variable content that there was, but also because engaging in this activity totally shut out any of the social anxieties that were on my mind from my shifts at work. It was a space where I didn't have to worry at all about the anxiety that had been a part of me for most of my life. I also found that the two activities, smoking and watching porn, became linked together as a combined strategy for taking away my worries. The constant smoking of cigarettes had me in an aroused state but with none of the anxiety that I would get around people, only the stimulation that the online porn provided. And so I find that the two activities are very hard to separate. If I smoke a cigarette I become sexually aroused to some degree, and if I watch online porn I crave smoking. This pattern has continued on and off throughout my life up to today.

Right now I am abstaining from both smoking and watching porn and I am trying to understand what type of long-term effects these activities have had on me. I am involved in a rewarding sexual relationship right now and I want to make sure I understand how porn watching can potentially affect that relationship. I naturally think that I am Strong enough to control anything that may affect me, but I also know that there is lots of room for me to deceive myself about that. I am looking into understanding the stories of others and hopefully through that I can realize if I have any unrealistic inspections about my sexual life that is grounded in my porn watching habits. Also, of course, I want to do everything that I can in order to continue not watching porn, and of course not smoking as well since that seems to be a parallel danger.

Thank you again for accepting me here.
 
Hello, and thank you for having me here on your forums. When I was in my early 30s I worked as a server and a bartender which meant many nights of staying up late and often sleeping in until mid-afternoon. I was also suffering quite acutely at the time from social anxieties which could get me quite agitated considering the social nature of my employment. This was also about the time when pornography began to become readily available on the internet for free. I was a regular smoker at the time and so on many nights I found myself staying up till the early hours of the morning smoking cigarettes and watching online porn. I found the experience not only enjoyable because of the amount of variable content that there was, but also because engaging in this activity totally shut out any of the social anxieties that were on my mind from my shifts at work. It was a space where I didn't have to worry at all about the anxiety that had been a part of me for most of my life. I also found that the two activities, smoking and watching porn, became linked together as a combined strategy for taking away my worries. The constant smoking of cigarettes had me in an aroused state but with none of the anxiety that I would get around people, only the stimulation that the online porn provided. And so I find that the two activities are very hard to separate. If I smoke a cigarette I become sexually aroused to some degree, and if I watch online porn I crave smoking. This pattern has continued on and off throughout my life up to today.

Right now I am abstaining from both smoking and watching porn and I am trying to understand what type of long-term effects these activities have had on me. I am involved in a rewarding sexual relationship right now and I want to make sure I understand how porn watching can potentially affect that relationship. I naturally think that I am Strong enough to control anything that may affect me, but I also know that there is lots of room for me to deceive myself about that. I am looking into understanding the stories of others and hopefully through that I can realize if I have any unrealistic inspections about my sexual life that is grounded in my porn watching habits. Also, of course, I want to do everything that I can in order to continue not watching porn, and of course not smoking as well since that seems to be a parallel danger.

Thank you again for accepting me here.
Hi my friend!
The same issue with me. The two things stick together like hell. I did not enjoy(ed) masturbation without having 5-10 cigarettes one after another. Crazy thing. This week I decided to quit, since me and the house smelled and it took bunch of time from sleeping, waking up exhausted.
I completely understand you.
Keep on and love your partner as much as you can!
 
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