I started my day by going to my men's Bible study group. It was actually a pretty good, encouraging experience. When I got home, I decided to take a shower. Bad move; I was feeling tempted right there and then. Since I had the night off, it might have even been a better move to just forego a shower for the day, but I didn't check myself and made a bad decision on impulse. I also caved again later on, this morning. I did not do a lot of self-checks throughout the day today. I did, however, hold to some other important habits.
I did my daily prayers. I also worked out, and managed to get some clean-up done around the place afterward. I know that none of that changes that I relapsed today, but I'd like to give light to the good things so that I can stay cheerful about this endeavor.
Also, while I don't have anything written down yet, I do have a place on the whiteboard next to my door put up for a plan. Namely, a plan on how to spend my next night off so that I have some structure. It's a lot easier to avoid relapse on work days because I have stuff to do that takes up most of the day. When I feel aimless, that's when this thing gets its hooks deep in me.
One last thing. I'd still like to smile at the fact that, up until tonight's relapse, I had an entirely M-free 8 days. That's great news in my eyes. That's the goal right there. Purity. That may not be what I hit, but it's what I'm aiming at.