FiveFortyFour
Active Member
Day 3
I'm starting to learn that self-checks are a pretty crucial part of keeping a level head. I won't lie, I had some bad M episodes today. I even took an upstairs shower. Didn't O, but got a fresh reminder of why I need to avoid those things. Beyond that, I also realized that the games I've been playing on my days off absolutely affect my success. For example, I swapped out Cyberpunk with Banjo-Kazooie and it's like switching from alcohol to water. Just way more wholesome in tone.
Beyond that, like I said, self-checks and a willingness to stop a train of thought if it's going bad places. If I'm thinking dirty thoughts, I'll do something to calm myself down. Say, count to 50, think about some nerdy crap that I know too much about, and in the mean time physically distance myself from whatever surroundings might be triggering me and ask myself what moved me to teeter on relapse in the first place. It's a lot of mental self-examination.
I'm starting to learn that self-checks are a pretty crucial part of keeping a level head. I won't lie, I had some bad M episodes today. I even took an upstairs shower. Didn't O, but got a fresh reminder of why I need to avoid those things. Beyond that, I also realized that the games I've been playing on my days off absolutely affect my success. For example, I swapped out Cyberpunk with Banjo-Kazooie and it's like switching from alcohol to water. Just way more wholesome in tone.
Beyond that, like I said, self-checks and a willingness to stop a train of thought if it's going bad places. If I'm thinking dirty thoughts, I'll do something to calm myself down. Say, count to 50, think about some nerdy crap that I know too much about, and in the mean time physically distance myself from whatever surroundings might be triggering me and ask myself what moved me to teeter on relapse in the first place. It's a lot of mental self-examination.