Gentlemen, after being a silent reader for a while, I'm finally brave enough to publicly confess my addiction with porn and masturbation with the goal of getting rid of PIED and finally having a great sex again sooner or later. I hope that this thread will help me holding myself accountable and that speaking about my issues lets me deal better with this situation. Reading the threads of others and seeing them struggle and succeed gives me motivation and hope to finally overcome this beast in me. Hopefully I can motivate others to join the fight as well.
I'm in my mid-20s and addicted to porn for about 10 years. I've been masturbating to normal porn usually, nothing too hard but frequent enough (almost daily for years) to completely mess up with my libido and having difficulties keeping up an erection, if I even get one. But porn is not the worst for me, it's social networks like instagram where i have been following a few girls for quite some years already. They are active and posts some nice pictures which totally meet my fetish. To me, they are my "porn" stars, so to say, even though I envision the porn with them all in my head.
A few weeks ago, I blocked all of them besides one and it made me feel already a lot better and was able to reduce the urges to masturbate. I even "cleaned" the bubble with instagram's algorithm so that these things don't show up in the discover area. However, it absolutely didn't help with my PIED, there was no progress on this front. As you might have guessed already, not blocking the last of these girls still kept me in my bad habits as I just could not give this one up which stopped me from making any progress.
But a few days ago, this last girl - the anchor that hold my ship in this bay of misery - deleted her instagram. I was devastated but also felt "free" and committed myself to curing my PIED. I haven't masturbated since and I think I'm now at day 8, did workouts and started meditating and already feel like this is the best attempt I have ever had. I got occasional MW back and my libido is at around 60%. This is my light at the end of the tunnel and I'm going full-steam ahead. Wish me luck!
I'm in my mid-20s and addicted to porn for about 10 years. I've been masturbating to normal porn usually, nothing too hard but frequent enough (almost daily for years) to completely mess up with my libido and having difficulties keeping up an erection, if I even get one. But porn is not the worst for me, it's social networks like instagram where i have been following a few girls for quite some years already. They are active and posts some nice pictures which totally meet my fetish. To me, they are my "porn" stars, so to say, even though I envision the porn with them all in my head.
A few weeks ago, I blocked all of them besides one and it made me feel already a lot better and was able to reduce the urges to masturbate. I even "cleaned" the bubble with instagram's algorithm so that these things don't show up in the discover area. However, it absolutely didn't help with my PIED, there was no progress on this front. As you might have guessed already, not blocking the last of these girls still kept me in my bad habits as I just could not give this one up which stopped me from making any progress.
But a few days ago, this last girl - the anchor that hold my ship in this bay of misery - deleted her instagram. I was devastated but also felt "free" and committed myself to curing my PIED. I haven't masturbated since and I think I'm now at day 8, did workouts and started meditating and already feel like this is the best attempt I have ever had. I got occasional MW back and my libido is at around 60%. This is my light at the end of the tunnel and I'm going full-steam ahead. Wish me luck!
