My Porn Addiction

[NewMe]

Today I hit rock bottom with pornography and have decided to do every possible thing to ensure that I never go down that path again. I have cried my last tears because of this Addiction.
I am a 21 year old Male and this is my story
the first time I knew to watch porn was when my cousin told me to type the word porn into a search bar. it was not that I had never seen nudes. in fact what led him to tell me type the word porn was because he had found me looking for naked pictures. I remember being fascinated with naked bodies and this was when I was 10 years old. I would watch a movie, find out the lead characters in the movie and then go ahead to search for their nude photos online. I was young but still had lust. I would always look for a way to see naked people. But I always knew that it was wrong.

 

[Blondie]

Welcome to your new life NewMe! You have made a great decision. This forum will be a great help to you on your journey. Life is so much better when not looking at porn.

Best,

Blondie

 

[NewMe]

Today I hit rock bottom with pornography and have decided to do every possible thing to ensure that I never go down that path again. I have cried my last tears because of this Addiction.
I am a 21 year old Male and this is my story
the first time I knew to watch porn was when my cousin told me to type the word porn into a search bar. it was not that I had never seen nudes. in fact what led him to tell me type the word porn was because he had found me looking for naked pictures. I remember being fascinated with naked bodies and this was when I was 10 years old. I would watch a movie, find out the lead characters in the movie and then go ahead to search for their nude photos online. I was young but still had lust. I would always look for a way to see naked people. But I always knew that it was wrong.

The biggest set back that pornography has had on me is my academics. I have managed to pass every level fairly well. now I am at a point where my future would be secured if I put all my efforts into my studies. Pornography has made it impossible for me to do so. I get depressed all the time and lack the moral to push through. I want to get to a point where I can get through a day doing everything I need to do to be successful without being affected by hindrances such as pornography.

 

[Fappy]

I can feel your regret and have experienced it myself, as have most of us on this forum.
The good news is that now you know what to do to fix all that. You can get your life back and put the demon of porn behind you and killed forever. Stick to the reboot and rely on us on this forum for all of your support.

 

[LUCAS VIEIRA]

The first step you have taken, you are wanting to stop addiction, I know what is at rock bottom with pornography, but know that nothing is impossible, you can do it, that you have a greater purpose and you will overcome addictions.

 

[NewMe]

The biggest set back that pornography has had on me is my academics. I have managed to pass every level fairly well. now I am at a point where my future would be secured if I put all my efforts into my studies. Pornography has made it impossible for me to do so. I get depressed all the time and lack the moral to push through. I want to get to a point where I can get through a day doing everything I need to do to be successful without being affected by hindrances such as pornography.

Yesterday I made a step that I had been procrastinating to do. I opened up to one of my friends about my struggle. I have been depressed and felt that I should tell someone so that I could get some relief. Turns out he has ever struggled with pornography too and somehow managed to beat it. He told me it wasn't easy but it was doable. I got some hope from that. I am looking forward to this journey.

 

[NewMe]

Yesterday I made a step that I had been procrastinating to do. I opened up to one of my friends about my struggle. I have been depressed and felt that I should tell someone so that I could get some relief. Turns out he has ever struggled with pornography too and somehow managed to beat it. He told me it wasn't easy but it was doable. I got some hope from that. I am looking forward to this journey.

It's so funny how it is my mind that tends to betray me. I know that pornography is not good for me but when I make up my mind to watch it, I do not reason and refuse to listen to my better judgement. the strength to battle myself is what I need so that I can beat the addiction.

 

[NewMe]

I read somewhere it is unrealistic to expect to quit pornography is one day and that I should look at it as a journey and not an event. I wonder how true this. Because I have always wanted to let go of it and never look back.

 

[Blondie]

Hey NewMe. That's a great question! It's very possible to quit this cold turkey and move on and never come back. Many have done this very thing, but many have not. For myself, when I decided to quit four years ago I stopped cold turkey and was clean for a year and a half. Unfortunately I blew it and somewhat got back into it again. Dumb I know! But now I'm back at it and I'm seven months clean.

The truth of the matter is, for some of us, porn is really not the main issue, but just a symptom of other problems that we fall into when we "think" we can't deal with them. But of course, that's not true, and we have to learn to deal with life as it is, and not fall back on the dumb habits of our former selves.

But yes, quitting porn cold turkey is completely possible. In fact, that mindset is the only way to succeed. When I have half-assed it in the past, I have always ended up with half-assed results. The only way to get anywhere is to quit this nonsense and never look back. Do what you must to get a good few days between you and porn, and you'll see that you can do this.

I wish you the best.

In the wise words of Yoda "Do or do not, there is no try"

 

[TryingHarder]

I know that pornography is not good for me but when I make up my mind to watch it, I do not reason and refuse to listen to my better judgement. the strength to battle myself is what I need so that I can beat the addiction.

This is true for everyone who's trying to beat a porn addiction. What am I doing, this won't solve my problems, I can't help myself... Like Blondie says: if you half-ass something, you will get half-assed results. Be strong, read posts on this forum, keep on talking to your friend.

And if you need some (scary) encouragement: I'm a 53 year old man who has been addicted to porn longer than you have been alive. Think about that. Do whatever you can to end your addiction now while you're still young!

 

[NewMe]

This is true for everyone who's trying to beat a porn addiction. What am I doing, this won't solve my problems, I can't help myself... Like Blondie says: if you half-ass something, you will get half-assed results. Be strong, read posts on this forum, keep on talking to your friend.

And if you need some (scary) encouragement: I'm a 53 year old man who has been addicted to porn longer than you have been alive. Think about that. Do whatever you can to end your addiction now while you're still young!

What do you wish you had done when you were younger that would help you beat the addiction then?

 

[NewMe]

I read somewhere it is unrealistic to expect to quit pornography is one day and that I should look at it as a journey and not an event. I wonder how true this. Because I have always wanted to let go of it and never look back.

The prolonged abstinence from pornography has led it to manifest in my dreams. Could I get rid of this in anyway. May be its because I think about it a lot.

 

[Ezel]

First thing I would recommend is get yourself educated about what you are dealing with "porn addiction", and there is no better way to do that than reading the one and only book about porn addiction, which is "your brain on porn" by Gary Wilson.

All the guys on this forum have read the book, or at least heard about it or watched Gary Wilson's Ted talks, it's a must read book.

If it wasn't for this book I would probably be still inside the porn rabbit hole.

Get the book, read it. that's the first step if you really want to quit porn.

Good luck for you brother...

 

[TryingHarder]

What do you wish you had done when you were younger that would help you beat the addiction then?

I should have realized a lot earlier that I had a serious problem and sought some help. Now, I think there is a lot more awareness (places like this forum didn't exist back then). So, in that respect, you're absolutely doing the right thing. Bottom line is: do whatever it takes to beat the addiction while you're still young.