Almost another week between the last post. Issues with work have been really getting to me lately to the point I have been feeling regrets of even choosing the career I have. As established in recent posts, being in a life situation I have little power in the moment to change is a big cue and these thoughts did lead to a handful of PMOs over the weekend. I actually paid for a subscription but deleted it shortly after as I knew deep inside, as long as it existed, it would serve as a barrier to a clean, normal life.
So definitely not out of the game just yet but not doing well lately. There is a strong desire in me to turn this around but these intentions are ultimately only as good as what I make of them.
1.) Weaken the porn urges by managing them as consistently as I can using methods discussed above.
Nothing since the weekend.
2.) Address the habits that lead to using porn.
The pause on the drinking & late nights is slowly beginning to reap benefits to energy & willpower. Other habits have suffered due to recent long work hours though.
Day 1 no porn
Day 1 no MO
So definitely not out of the game just yet but not doing well lately. There is a strong desire in me to turn this around but these intentions are ultimately only as good as what I make of them.
1.) Weaken the porn urges by managing them as consistently as I can using methods discussed above.
Nothing since the weekend.
2.) Address the habits that lead to using porn.
The pause on the drinking & late nights is slowly beginning to reap benefits to energy & willpower. Other habits have suffered due to recent long work hours though.
Day 1 no porn
Day 1 no MO