NightyEight
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Currently on day 6. My two streaks highest streaks were 60 and 37 days. I remember losing control of myself when I was sitting in front of laptop when mind was so fidgety that I opened up the private window and started searching in a span on 6 seconds. The reaction in my experience was automatic. I have been trying to quit, but have been measuring my progress in the form of days and that doesn't work. However, I averaged 15 days for about an year excluding the 60th and 37th. It was in the last year and not able to quit it in every attempt made so far, just reveals how deep this addiction is ingrained. I just want to put up a fight this time with those automatic responses, to be freed of this new drug. I have seen tremendous progress in the last year of my life where I was just fixing up all aspects of myself. I cleared all those exams which I failed and graduated, taught myself coding, increased my studying capacity to about 8 hrs a day (focused mode) and rekindled interest in learning, completed a few certifications on coursera, and finally landed a job. It didn't stop there, at my company when I joined they have conducted a coding test with the condition that people clearing it get a pay-rise. I have cleared it and expected to get a pay-rise of 100% all within the first month of my job. I take no credit, because the reality is abstaining from PMO has improved my motivational levels to change and fix things last year. I just want to feel how eradicating it completely, would restore my functionality in life in general.