Thanks for the comment and the support. In regards to confession to the wife I really wish I hadn’t done a big one a few weeks into our marriage. I had seen prostitutes off and on for a couple of years before I met my wife. The last time was the day before our first date. It never happened again after that.
A few weeks after our wedding there was a situation arose that she had to tell me about something she had done previously that she was very ashamed of. I felt I now had an opening to tell her about my guilt and shame. In retrospect I shouldn’t have done it.
Things are actually going really well in our marriage but we had an extremely rough start.
...but I feel like a lot of what is discussed here is anecdotal pseudoscience. Especially from the younger posters there seems to be a lot of penis based anxiety.
I'm 33 and wonder if I need it and that scares the shit outta me.Thanks for reading. I want to get in quite a bit better shape and then start tapering off the viagra. I’m currently at 70 days no ED and I don’t want to go back to that, ever.
56 days no PMO
Right now I’m kind of coasting. I don’t have any real big temptations. I’m also not masturbating and my only sexual release is with my wife.
I’ve been intentionally backing off on the initiations and I think it’s working good but I’m starting to worry my wife might be getting the wrong message. A couple of nights ago I wasn’t feeling that well and when my wife was laying in bed I said “good night, I’m going to take a bath”. I think she was expecting to have sex and took it as a rejection. Then yesterday she texted me “can we please have sex tonight”. I said of course we can. I get home late from work and she’s sick (there’s a stomach virus making it’s way through our household) and it wasn’t happening. She said something to the effect of “it’s been forever since we’ve had sex and I’m getting worried”. Well it had been 4 days, so I guess these are good problems to have. Between the TRT and the not masturbating I feel like I’m about to explode at night and have trouble falling asleep. Tonight will be 5 nights and I hope no one feels sick tonight. I guess it’s good practice because we are going to be apart quite a bit next month including an 8 day stretch.
64 days no PMO and I feel like I’m going strong. I’m a bit perturbed with my wife right now. She takes forever to read or answer my texts and it’s rare that she answers my phone calls. If we are together though she will stop mid sentence to answer a text message. I’ve brought it up before and there may be some slight improvement but not much. I called her about something this morning (she was driving to her second work location which is 45 minutes away) and it went straight to voicemail. Then I try again 10 minutes later and she answers but acts perturbed. Then I thought she hanged up on me but it looks like the call failed. Then I’m going to pick up the boys from day care and get a text from my MIL saying she picked them up which is fine because it gives me more time to get the pool ready for a party tomorrow. She says my wife said it was OK for her to pick them up but she never told me that.