Day 28. Still so far, so good. Desire to PMO is pretty much zero. But something interesting is happening.
I've been having sexual thoughts about a woman at work. Nothing sleazy or kinky, just a good ol' attraction. In the first few weeks of my reboot, I pretty much kiboshed all sexual thoughts, because a) I knew it would be the porn addiction trying to reassert itself, and b) I figured any sexual thoughts were misguided.
Feeling this attraction to this woman feels "good", even though odds are we will never have a sexual relationship.
I'm thinking / hoping that this is my libido coming back. With my addiction, any sexual urges were always a misguided and grotesque response to stress and depression. Now that my head is clearer, my current sexual desires feel very natural and positive.