TryingHarder
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Day 180.
If my calculations are correct, I have made it to 6 months clean. Free of PMO.
But I feel like some points should be deducted, since lately I have been looking at a bit of porn. My troubled mind just wants to reminisce - to return to some kind of weird, magical place that never really existed.
However, reaching 6 months is very significant and feels good, since it beats my previous clean streak.
So I have stumbled with some recent image searches, but I am picking myself up and reminding myself: those girls aren't real, you never had sex with them, you were just some guy jerking off in front of his computer. You're better than this. Forget their names, forget their faces. Eventually, enough time will pass that I will no longer hear those siren calls and I'll be truly free of the addiction.
If my calculations are correct, I have made it to 6 months clean. Free of PMO.
But I feel like some points should be deducted, since lately I have been looking at a bit of porn. My troubled mind just wants to reminisce - to return to some kind of weird, magical place that never really existed.
However, reaching 6 months is very significant and feels good, since it beats my previous clean streak.
Those are wise words, @GBS! "Becoming" is a key word here, because I'm certainly not there yet. But I am at a point where I certainly realize I was a giant turd for many years: addicted to porn, knowing how serious it was, and yet being too weak or confused to quit.Rejoice in who you are becoming and wonder what a giant turd you would be to go back being the person you were before.
So I have stumbled with some recent image searches, but I am picking myself up and reminding myself: those girls aren't real, you never had sex with them, you were just some guy jerking off in front of his computer. You're better than this. Forget their names, forget their faces. Eventually, enough time will pass that I will no longer hear those siren calls and I'll be truly free of the addiction.
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