Hi, My name is Alt. I have just graduated college and was recruited as an engineering intern recently. I believe that I have a severe porn addiction which often hinders my productivity. I have tried to avoid pornographic content atmost for 2 weeks, and at this point the urge for relapsing is uncontrollable. In the course of remaining away from porn and masturbation, even the most basic arguments at home makes me return to porn and find peace there.
I had never seen porn until I was 20 years old. My parents had decided not give me or my siblings any kind of mobile phones until we joined college. So naturally, I discovered porn and masturbation in my early 20's. At first, it was not even a problem. I would watch porn just for the reason of understanding what sex was. I have never been taught or been in a discussion involving sex until this point. Slowly my fascination grew and one day when I was alone, I tried to masturbate for the first time and that was it. Throughout my time in college I would find time to cancel classes and return back to my room and masturbate. This continued to the point where I was no longer interested in studies.
My routine of finding atleast 1 day in a week for masturbation, slowly grew to twice, then thrice and then daily. At the end my undergrad, I had failed in 3 subjects and had to take an extra year to complete my degree. Fortunately after this tough time, I was able to find a good job and I thought that I would be too tired to indulge in my addiction when I had work.
But this did not happen. I would often have a boner when I wake up, in th middle of the day or at night when I am going to sleep, and I took these as excuses to relieve myself using porn. Since I have been watching porn for more than 4 years, I take considerable time (about 1 to 2 hours) in finding the content that arouses me and then spend time masturbating atleast twice.
At this point in my life, I can't go without porn and masturbation for more than 2 days. The best attempt that I have taken recently is for 1 week, after which I relapsed badly. So let me start this thread today and make myself accountable. I hope the best for me and all others going through this ordeal. Please do support me by commenting on the post as it would make me feel less lonely. This is
DAY 1.
I had never seen porn until I was 20 years old. My parents had decided not give me or my siblings any kind of mobile phones until we joined college. So naturally, I discovered porn and masturbation in my early 20's. At first, it was not even a problem. I would watch porn just for the reason of understanding what sex was. I have never been taught or been in a discussion involving sex until this point. Slowly my fascination grew and one day when I was alone, I tried to masturbate for the first time and that was it. Throughout my time in college I would find time to cancel classes and return back to my room and masturbate. This continued to the point where I was no longer interested in studies.
My routine of finding atleast 1 day in a week for masturbation, slowly grew to twice, then thrice and then daily. At the end my undergrad, I had failed in 3 subjects and had to take an extra year to complete my degree. Fortunately after this tough time, I was able to find a good job and I thought that I would be too tired to indulge in my addiction when I had work.
But this did not happen. I would often have a boner when I wake up, in th middle of the day or at night when I am going to sleep, and I took these as excuses to relieve myself using porn. Since I have been watching porn for more than 4 years, I take considerable time (about 1 to 2 hours) in finding the content that arouses me and then spend time masturbating atleast twice.
At this point in my life, I can't go without porn and masturbation for more than 2 days. The best attempt that I have taken recently is for 1 week, after which I relapsed badly. So let me start this thread today and make myself accountable. I hope the best for me and all others going through this ordeal. Please do support me by commenting on the post as it would make me feel less lonely. This is
DAY 1.
