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GBS

GBS

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1,233 days sober
21 days no MO

Why is it that I am significantly more frustrated in the morning? Testosterone? Does it go down during the day? Remember my levels should be sky high given my no masturbation discipline. I don’t get it.
 
Percival

Percival

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GBS said:
1,233 days sober
21 days no MO

Why is it that I am significantly more frustrated in the morning? Testosterone? Does it go down during the day? Remember my levels should be sky high given my no masturbation discipline. I don’t get it.
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Interesting, it's usually the opposite for me (the frustration level), because my willpower reserve is highest in the morning. Then by evening/night it's hard to care any more. A very brief google search suggested that testosterone is indeed highest in the morning and then recedes throughout the day, though, so your experience may well be typical.
 
GBS

GBS

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Percival said:
Interesting, it's usually the opposite for me (the frustration level), because my willpower reserve is highest in the morning. Then by evening/night it's hard to care any more. A very brief google search suggested that testosterone is indeed highest in the morning and then recedes throughout the day, though, so your experience may well be typical.
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Thanks @Percival - yes I think you’re right that testosterone lessens as the day goes on. I think mine is sky high first thing (like right now for me, and I have fantasies zipping around my brain which is sort of nice but they have to be quelled), and it just dies down as I get other things done during the day. Part of me wants those fantasies to remain with me all day and part of me knows I am just after a little dopamine hit. That’s life I suppose!

1,235 days sober
23 days no MO
 
Percival

Percival

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GBS said:
and I have fantasies zipping around my brain which is sort of nice but they have to be quelled
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Oh, tell me about it! Actually, don't, and I won't tell you about mine either. But I fully understand! The fantasies are our own imaginations creating what we want to see. And I think that's normal and (more or less) healthy, just as we can imagine a great vacation or a lovely sunset. Neither of which have lost luggage or too many mosquitoes, when in imagination. But yes: our higher, smarter, wiser brains still have to be in control, which means enjoy the fantasy for a moment or two and then quell it.
 
GBS

GBS

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Percival said:
Oh, tell me about it! Actually, don't, and I won't tell you about mine either. But I fully understand! The fantasies are our own imaginations creating what we want to see. And I think that's normal and (more or less) healthy, just as we can imagine a great vacation or a lovely sunset. Neither of which have lost luggage or too many mosquitoes, when in imagination. But yes: our higher, smarter, wiser brains still have to be in control, which means enjoy the fantasy for a moment or two and then quell it.
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Cheers @Percival - I do draw some solace from your saying you think it’s normal to fantasize. But then again, why do I like being comforted? An excuse to keep doing it? I think so. I am pretty chill about it all. Just wish it didn’t bother me so.

1,237 days sober
25 days no MO
 
GBS

GBS

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Blondie said:
You remind me of those Chevrolet truck commercials. LIKE A ROCK, LIIIKE A ROCK!! Thanks Bob Seger.

Keep rocking it champ.
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Genuinely put a smile on my face. Needed it a bit. Cheers @Blondie - rock that you are.

Saw my elderly parents today. Not difficult, just very slightly samey from last few visits. Conversation can be stilted.

Things with wife are nice just this appears to be the healing process and it means I say and do nothing to rock any boats. I guess some of you possibly think that’s heroic and others think I’m a pussy. I am neither. Just recovering and taking what I can if and when it comes.

1,241 days sober
3 days no MO
 
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Freerider

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Great job! an upward spiral, by doing small things right we hope one day it will produce good. there is some tough guy like @GBS who has been able to be without anesthetics for over 1200 days. that is what I am striving for myself! a whole life without the anesthetics of porn! Keep going, talk and do good stuff, dont expect anything someday miracle will happen.
 
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