Hi,
@GBS.
I used to think of counting days as a kind of training wheels, when I really needed the encouragement or focus when trying to quit.
If it continues to help you, keep counting.
However, at this point, I would say it's an identity thing. You're no longer an addict, or- you're no longer addicted or habituated to the former behaviors. Continuing to count only keeps you tethered to an old identity. It's like a resurrected man holding on to graveclothes, or a former blind man (who now sees) holding on to his walking staff.
Certain things need to be seriously looked at as to the philosophy you hold to surrounding this issue. Are you an addict? What is an addict? Is it an incurable disease that you'll always have? Are you not now free? Is not freedom per your will? Or, are you at the mercy of unseen whims and wisps that drive you to actions over which you have no control? Or, are you just inherently devious, that, no matter how long you're 'sober', you can't be trusted around sexual stimuli, that if seen, you'll be locked into the uncontrollable force that is your shadow-self?
Counting lends toward black-and-white thinking, an all-or-nothing approach that doesn't reflect the true zig-zag path to freedom. Thankfully, you're beyond the earlier phases when a lapse seemed all but inevitable. Now- God forbid- you'd have to go cross-grain against your new established habits of freedom in order to 'lapse'. In other words, I think you can trust yourself enough not to 'hold your own hand' in terms of counting.
