Another story - probably the same as everyone else
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GBS
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32 days no MO
Also a massive milestone as I am officially 4 years clean from masturbation to porn.
I don’t have a big essay just know that I hold onto some key thoughts:
1. Whatever happens I will never be the person I used to be again. He was awful. The new me is just fine.
2. I need accountability and I get it here and with a local fellowship
3. I masturbate very infrequently and try to keep it to thoughts of my wife
Things at home are really good but not perfect. This, I truly believe, will come. Sometimes I wonder if I am a fool for staying, and then I wake up and smell the roses.
Keep clean everyone.
Also a massive milestone as I am officially 4 years clean from masturbation to porn.
I don’t have a big essay just know that I hold onto some key thoughts:
1. Whatever happens I will never be the person I used to be again. He was awful. The new me is just fine.
2. I need accountability and I get it here and with a local fellowship
3. I masturbate very infrequently and try to keep it to thoughts of my wife
Things at home are really good but not perfect. This, I truly believe, will come. Sometimes I wonder if I am a fool for staying, and then I wake up and smell the roses.
Keep clean everyone.
Blondie
Respected Member
This is amazing, my friend. Thanks for being a shining example of living a life of integrity and truth. These days that seems to hit me the most, that is, not the number of being officially away "from porn" but being a truthful man to yourself and loved ones. Funny enough, I was thinking about this just yesterday.
All I can say is hell yeah!
Love
Blondie
All I can say is hell yeah!
Love
Blondie
GBS
Respected Member
Thank you most sincerely from the bottom of my heart. I was giving a (what is called) “main share” at another fellowship two weeks ago. I mentioned that I was an obsessive journalist and it was central to my discipline of recovery. I also said there were one or two people on the forum who were instrumental in keeping me on the straight and narrow. I was, of course, referring to you. I know my debt to you is invisible but it’s always there and the mental fortitude I needed sometimes was garnered from many places….but you and your advice were right in the middle of that.
Thanks also for making the point about how recovery is so much more than just not jerking off to porn. Integrity, honest, just being a proper man….these are the goals that we subliminally realise we search for when the brain switches over. It’s truly life changing.
Keep going. Never give up.
Thanks to you all.
GBS
humaninprogress
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Thanks for being here and staying active, GBS. Your journey is an inspiration. I appreciate your dedication to your sobriety and to this forum. It gives me hope that one day I might also be able to say I've reached my 4 year anniversary of being porn free. Congratulations - and thank you.
GBS
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Hi @Sammyjo - wow, it’s been a while. I hope you’re doing well. I have been giving RN a bit of a wide berth really just to see if I can. In other words, is my sobriety founded well enough that I don’t need to be a daily journal writer.
I will always owe a debt of thanks to the fellowship on here so I will literally never say goodbye, au revoir now and agai.
GBS
Respected Member
Thanks man. I am 4 years and 2 months sober. You can do it. Just keep coming back here and be totally true to your self.