117. A good “nothing day” as my wife said. We didn’t discuss we just got on with things and we got a house project nearly done. Very good just to do something together and not have to live the issues every day.
I like that idea: a "nothing day". Sometimes it's good to just live a normal life, you know?
121 days of no PMO. Can’t recall where I am on MO days because I think I did that just over a week ago. Committed to the long haul on that as I feel I stop the reboot in its tracks when I do that. Discipline shall be my watchword.
I was quiet tonight after a good day. Wife said what’s up. For the last 5 years I would have said nothing’s wrong- this time I spoke up. I just described the incongruous position of living a near perfect life with the woman I love except there’s no intimacy at all. I made it very clear I wasn’t complaining just explaining. She understood and we agreed it was great I spoke up and she said she had given thought to moving forwards but was nervous it might be too early and she would freak out. I told her to wait. It was a respectful and beautiful conversation and in some ways as good as intimacy itself.
Keep writing everyone. I would not be where I am without you all.