Now where are we…
215 days no PMO
63 days no ejaculation
Edinburgh was lovely thanks. Truly lovely. Their fish and chip shops sell deep fried mars bars, they really do. No I didn’t have one.
I thought about my wife a fair bit on the trip although I was mainly concentrating on the university open day (for my son). Mrs GBS and I had a good soul searching chat on Friday. Gist is that she wants more affection but something always stops her. She says it’s her stubborn streak - I can attest that she possesses this! But the chat was good and positive. I said we could just take it (affection) off the table to avoid pressure right now, and she said don’t do that. So it is going to be natural. It has to be.
Now I am 7 months into my recovery and that is also 7 months without seeing a naked female, I am finding the wait easier to accept. That’s great at one level because I don’t follow my wife around the house staring at her arse. But at the same time with fewer (not zero, have to admit) fantasies and no immediate prospect of a sexual encounter, my brain is ever so slightly getting used to it. I had a phase when I wanted to edge a lot, that’s gone. I know this is all good news really, and the GBS resting penis is sometimes the size of a baby’s arm……but I do admit to minor concerns of feeling like it may never happen.
Glad with my progress though and glad to be back. Will I get to 90 days celibate, or will things progress With wife such that the streak breaks? We shall see. The wise money is on 90 days.