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Ezel said:
it's not a setback, i wouldn't consider it as such. but if you did what your brain told you and give in to what it wants, like if you started fantasizing and masturbated while you are on the shower then I would consider it a relapse...

be strong recovery, like you said your brain is negotiating with you, it will make it look like a win-win situation, but trust me it's not...

all your brain wants is the dopamine kick from your relapse, it doesn't care if you relapse and watch porn. all it cares for is the dopamine, even if you lose yourself in the process...

stay strong recovery, don't get manipulated by whatever your brain is telling you, just hang in there and try to stay busy and observe your thoughts but don't act on them...

keep pushing my man
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Thanks man yea I knew what to expect and still almost listened to my brain… Tough obstacle but I made it through and jumped over it and gonna keep on trucking!! This poison will be gone once and for all… I appreciate the feedback and support
 
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Day 33: I didn’t get a chance to post about yesterday later in the day so I’ll say it here.. Getting past my brain trying to manipulate me I went out to get my haircut then went to the library later and boy I felt good… I noticed women paying more attention to me and feeling the confidence to talk to them… It felt great and I know there will be a flatline period when it temporarily goes away but as long as there is light at the end of the tunnel which I know there will be I’m not stopping… A lifestyle change is a beautiful thing… It’s a rainy morning today where I’m at so didn’t go the the court but it will get sunnier according to the forecast later in the day so I’ll probably go later on in the day and try to socialize with people more…. Also gonna watch my friends dog while he’s gone today and tomorrow so that will be something more to do… I can’t wait what the future holds
 
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Day 34: Had a job interview today and aced it.. Got the job!! I’m low key hyped and grateful… Woke up and went to the court so that probably helped me mentally… Still getting attention from women and I feel the progress but still work to be done… Seed retention is definitely the goal right now atleast till after day 90… But most likely when I know I’m fully recovered…. Just hard to fight these women off not to brag or anything haha… Humor is one of the factors that helps with this reboot process…. Atleast for me… Everybody continue to be great and the best versions of yourselves you can possibly be!!! Stay motivated and strong on this journey and ignore your brain at all costs!! God bless
 
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Day 35:Had another dream and it felt so real and I woke up to see if I was doing it in my sleep.. That’s how real it felt… This was like 3:00 in the morning so definitely just stayed up…. Went to the basketball court around 7 in the morning which is part of my daily routine at this point… Kind of a weird lazy day for me with low energy.. Went to put money on my credit card came back home and was gonna do yard work but felt exhausted.. Went back in the bed and just got up now.. Had plans to go Bowling tonight so we’ll see how that goes.. Overall just a strange day and have low energy.. Could be in the flatline too because that would make sense… Start my new job sometime in the next two weeks so looking forward to that…I made it to the end of Week 5… It’s going by so fast… Week 6 starting tomorrow!! Onwards 🙏
 
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Day 37: Had a little trigger moment by accident on Sunday but a small thing to a giant… Played basketball for a hour then did yard work then after that went to afternoon church service.. Had dinner at my grandmas house then chilled with my cousin for the night… Made a mistake and smoked some weed which I didn’t want to do but it’s the first time for a month and probably won’t do it again.. Only did it when I went out…But never again…. It’s now 6:17 on a Monday morning and getting ready to go to the basketball court at 6:45 to shoot some hoops….
 
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Day 39: Up early in the morning in the flatline and feel angry and depressed… About the mistakes I made in my life and the things other people have done to me in the past and overall just feeling down… Experience has taught me this is apart of the process… Praying and watching motivational videos to keep my spirits up.. The urges aren’t really heavy in my mind and hasn’t been since Week 4.. But I can tell my brain misses the false pleasure of PMO.. Gonna keep fighting and keep on trucking…
 
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Day 39: Part 2…. Forgot to say I was sick yesterday also didn’t do much but lay in the bed all day but I’m better now and gonna get outside the house as much as possible… Had another minor trigger with these damn pop up ads on YouTube but again small thing to a giant.. Definitely in the flatline as I almost reach 40 days but it was the same on my last reboot around this same time.. It kind of mirrors it in a way but a little different at the same time… Everybody stay positive and motivated…
 
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Day 40: We made to day 40!! I’m halfway through the infamous 90 days… I noticed people trying to bring me down the more I grow from this experience so I know I’m doing something right…. Woke up from the craziest dream.. That’s the only time I get urges is when I wake up from them… I’m in the flatline for the rest of the day though…. At my doctors appointment now for my physical.. I noticed in the flatline I had less patience than before but this shall pass as they say… Onwards we go!!!
 
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Day 41: People that tried to shit on me before my reboot are trying to bring me down even more so now that I’m proceeding and getting better in life.. That’s how I know I’m making progress.. Was still in the flatline until literally just now as I’m typing this lol… I’ll probably go right back into it from now and week 7.. We shall see…. Everything is going great besides a couple of trigger moments from a damn YouTube video thumbnail… I’ll overcome it.. Small thing to a giant… Hope all is well with y’all… God Bless
 
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Day 42:Was tired so decided to lay down.. That’s when my brain thought I was vulnerable and tried to negotiate with me… I got right up so fast and am currently cooking my lunch… Imma try to sleep only at night and avoid any daytime naps… I start my job for training either next week or the week after.. Excited for that.. So many great things coming which gives me even more motivation…The end of week 6 has finally come.. Was in the flatline from the middle of the week to the end of the week and will probably continue for the next week… Week 7 starts tomorrow!!! Onwards we go!!!!
 
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Day 43:Terrible day terrible day….. Once started a beautiful Father’s Day.. I had to mess it up by having a temper tantrum that really came out of nowhere then had the whole family distraught and concerned.. Messed up Father’s Day and got what? The only good news is I’m still going strong with the reboot… Grateful for that but horrible day.. But forward always.. Gotta keep on trucking.. Have so many awesome opportunities ahead….
 
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