Road To Recovery

anubu0

Active Member
Hey Recovery. My father's day got off to a pretty poor start as well, also because of some family issues. During recovery make sure every other aspect of your life is in check for success. I know that family is super important to me so today I will try to apologize and make amends to some of the damage I caused.
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Hey Recovery. My father's day got off to a pretty poor start as well, also because of some family issues. During recovery make sure every other aspect of your life is in check for success. I know that family is super important to me so today I will try to apologize and make amends to some of the damage I caused.
Sorry to hear that and yes that’s exactly what I did and made sure to do.. I apologized to my whole family and now moving forward to a better future…
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Day 44: This day is going much better than yesterday so far… I definitely realized I don’t listen to or my mind would reject the rap and r&B music I listened to if it’s not motivational…. Much more gospel and uplifting music everyday.. Which goes to my next question.. Did anybody give up the music they listened to pre reboot? I know the goal is to be a completely different and improved version of yourself than you were before and that might also mean sacrificing the old music you used to listen to aswell… I cut off TV, my old YouTube channel, video games and social media aswell… So certain type of music might have to go aswell.. Feedback would definitely be appreciated.. God bless
 

anubu0

Active Member
I don't know how I feel about the music thing. During my most successful reboot, I had just gone through a break up and I was listening to some really hardcore rap and stuff which kinda of fueled this sense of revenge and anger in me when I went to the gym. Other than my gym sessions though, I gravitated more to listen to more "uplifting" music as well after hearing Gabe talk about it. He said that he tended to stay away from songs and artists that just would spew "f***, b****" and other swear words as well as songs that were very sexual in nature.
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
I don't know how I feel about the music thing. During my most successful reboot, I had just gone through a break up and I was listening to some really hardcore rap and stuff which kinda of fueled this sense of revenge and anger in me when I went to the gym. Other than my gym sessions though, I gravitated more to listen to more "uplifting" music as well after hearing Gabe talk about it. He said that he tended to stay away from songs and artists that just would spew "f***, b****" and other swear words as well as songs that were very sexual in nature.
That makes a lot of sense thanks.. I only been listening to hip hop when I’m shooting hoops or playing basketball.. It’s motivational hip hop though I have a playlist.. All the negative violent rap and R&B songs I listened to before I just avoid now… So I just have to avoid the music all together if it’s not motivational and inspirational…. Thanks for the feedback
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Day 45: This was my chill day… Played basketball in the AM.. Took a shower then just chilled and was reading success stories.. I have to start getting out with people more and socialize to test my progress.. My last reboot I went out constantly to the clubs and bars… I’m trying to do less of that now that I’m on a different path… Gotta meet new people and make new friends for new experiences…That’s one of my goals plus I start my new job soon that will probably help…..
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Day 46: Another rainy day where I’m at… Was difficult to stay active since I was in the house for most of the day and annoyed I had to to avoid my favorite artist dropping an album which was my most anticipated album of the decade so far… Can’t watch the music videos also obviously.. But overall it’s definitely worth it… This reboot journey is far more important in my eyes so sacrifices has to be made in my book…. I’m actually gonna see that artist in concert live next month anyway so ill happily choose that… Eveybody stay motivated and self disciplined an remember our great life is in front of us and not behind us… God Bless
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Day 48:Wasn’t gonna post until the beginning of Week 8 but holy hell today is rough… My brain is trying it today… Gotta and gonna ignore it at all costs! On my way to the park to walk on a couple of trails to get my mind right….I appreciate all the support for the last 7 weeks… Let’s keep on trucking
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Day 48 Part 2: Ok so this just happened!!! So I bought a new IPad and went to put it on on IPhone back up storage.. You can guess what’s next… Now of course normal people would be thinking it’s gonna put the storage from my current iPhone to my IPad… Nope!! My old IPhone number and storage the one that was on my IPad.. Before I noticed that I went to google chrome and a porn website was one of the tabs.. Thank god I didn’t see anything but the tab name and exited out immediately.. Boy the anger I had I can’t put it in words… I reset my IPad completely and about to go for a walk… I made to much progress to stop now!!! Just can’t believed that happened and my luck was that bad… Oh well.. I’ll take it as a test from god and keep on trucking!! Unbelievable though!!! Feedback is always welcome
 
Last edited:

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Day 49: Up early on a Saturday morning and feel horrible and depressed.. I’m still down on what happened yesterday and my brain is trying its best to convince me that it was setback seeing that P website name on the tab… I didn’t see anything but the website name on the tab so thank god for that… But that opened the old pathways to my old life I thought I buried and left behind…. Imma still keep on trucking but ain’t gonna lie it’s tough right now
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Update: My social anxiety is just completely gone.. There is nothing like having multiple successful conversations with strangers.. This is great!! Got over the urges from yesterday and this morning… By far the hardest moment to resist in any reboot I’ve had.. Atleast that I can remember…It was rough but I got through it!!! Praise the Lord!!! Start my job this week also and can’t wait… This poison isn’t worth it guys… Commit to it and stick with it.. Week 8 starts tomorrow!!! Onwards!!!!
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Week 8: Day 50!!! Wow 40 more days until the infamous day 90… Wow I can’t explain how much better I feel… Social Anxiety is gone or most of it’s gone… Had little moments here and there but didn’t last long… The major urges and flashbacks are gone mostly but my brain is still trying convince me which it keeps doing since that accidental trigger on Day 48.. That’ is still bothering me in a small part of the back of my mind.. Other then that I feel great… I have to ask to clear my conscience if those who read what happened on day 48 is that considered a setback?
 

anubu0

Active Member
No I don't think it is. In one of Gary Wilson's videos I think he mentions that you are only refueling your P addicted brain if you ACTIVELY seek AND consume pornography. Accidental slip ups don't induce the same dopamine high as ACTIVELY sitting down in front of your computer for the 3rd time this week and ACTIVELY loading up a P site.
 

Blondie

Well-Known Member
No you didn't see anything and it was an accident. So I would say you're good man.

Moments like that are good for us sometimes, it will test our resolve.

Carry on man, nice job on day 50.
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
No I don't think it is. In one of Gary Wilson's videos I think he mentions that you are only refueling your P addicted brain if you ACTIVELY seek AND consume pornography. Accidental slip ups don't induce the same dopamine high as ACTIVELY sitting down in front of your computer for the 3rd time this week and ACTIVELY loading up a P site.
Yeah that makes sense.. Thanks for the feedback!!! Onwards!!!
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Day 51: Another chill day as it was raining outside all day but was active inside the house.. Cleaning the house and organizing everything was a great way to stay busy… By the way does anybody else get headaches during this reboot process? Because I had numerous headaches these past 7 weeks lol… I don’t remember that being a thing in my last reboots but those were 5 years ago and older… Still in the flatline but I can feel the progress as my testicles are feeling heavier and heavier…. I’m more than halfway there and I ain’t stopping!!!
 

Recovery Will Come

Active Member
Day 53: Annoyed that I’m still in the flatline and annoyed that my brain tried to negotiate with me when I lifted my penis to use the bathroom.. Why is that still happening? 🤦🏾‍♂️ I’ll keep going strong though just annoyed about everything right now haha… The devil trying to attack me through every facet of my life… People trying to distract me from my goals and calling me out… My brain randomly trying to negotiate me in my 8th week… I know I’m recovering and this is all apart of the process but still the amount of people trying to bring me down even people I don’t even know is aggravating but it also means I’m doing something right.. A breakthrough is coming I feel it… Stay blessed everyone and I apologize for my frustration
 

Blondie

Well-Known Member
Hey Recovery, you're doing great man, you really are.

Sometimes I know when I get this way, a big change is usually about to happen, so you just have to push through to the other side.

53 days is quite the achievement.

Best brother.
 
Top