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Hello my name is Chris… No stranger to this site… I have had porn addiction for about 10 years now… I first started on this website 5 years ago in 2017… When I went on a impressive 10 week reboot without PMO….Unfortunately relapsed on day 64 by making the foolish mistake on going back on social media…. Now here I am five years later to finally beat this addiction for good…This addiction started when I was 19 so you can call me a late bloomer…I had a good 18 years without porn addiction which I am thankful for because a lot of people have it a a young age and go through grades 1-12 with this addiction… Growing up I wasn’t a ladies man I would say until maybe high school I realized that girls were interested in me.. Went on a few dates, made out with numerous girls and used to flirt easily before from the beginning of high school til I graduated… When I turned 19 the first year after I graduated is when I somehow found Giantess videos on YouTube and remembered always had a fetish for that when I was younger I used to fantasize.. That’s when it started for me and masturbated for the first time at 19 years old.. Can you believe it.. Most people growing up did that a a very young age.. I had sex before I ever masurbated.. Yeah hard to believe.. But after that I was hooked… Thts when porn came in… I was hooked to fetishes from porn and year by year I kept getting into more extreme content.. Realized slowly but surely it would screw up my social life, sex life and would become a shell of myself from high school… I couldn’t meet new girls or people in general because it was like my social skills were gone.. Extreme Social anxiety when I never had social anxiety before.. Would shy away from interactions with people… Depression and extreme lack of motivation while everybody around me was moving forward in their life while it seemed I was in stuck in the same spot for years… My dick was shriveled up and becoming way smaller and lifeless I was just a mess… I decided to google what was wrong with me to see if anybody had a similar problem experience or if it was just me.. That’s when I found Reboot Nation Gabe Deem videos on YouTube around 2015.. Those videos saved my life and gave me hope knowing there was a way out… I think I went on numerous reboots that year but ultimately failed.. I couldn’t get past 3 days at first… Then 3 turned into 8 then 8 turned into 15 and 15 turned 20 and that was the farthest I got for 2015… 2016 comes around in June and decided to do another reboot… I went 29 days that years then ultimately relapsed… Went out and met girls and chilled with them throughout that reboot process so I know I was making process in that time frame.. April 2017 comes around and that’s when I decided this is it I’m going to beat this addiction for good… That as the first time I used this website and forums and created my journal… Like I said I went on an impressive 10 week streak… Around my 4th or 5th week my social anxiety was gone…Went through the flatline and everything but overcame it all.. Around my 8th week I felt my morning wood come back and one day randomly my dick was just standing up and I almost cried.. I was recovering and never thought this would happen again.. I made it day 64.. Just 26 days away from day 90 then I went out with some friends and then made a major red flag mistake.. I was feeling so good I made the terrible decision of going back on social media.. Facebook and Instagram and would regret that decision for years to come.. Relasped that same night and it was the worst feeling ever.. I have never had an official reboot since 2017.. Now at 28 the last 5 years has been hell… Now staring Sunday I am finally back on my official reboot and I have hope and motivation as I did in 2017 but even more this time with greater experience… I hope for support as I share my recovery journey with you all and I will do the same and support y’all too… We can beat this addiction if we all work together!!!! God bless you all.. We got this
 
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Day 1.. Woke up early about to make some breakfast, take a shower and get my day started.. Got work off today so just trying to be productive.. Excited for putting this addiction behind me but also a lil nervous…. Keep trucking fellas we got this
 

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Still day 1.: What’s unusual about this reboot compared to my other ones is that from day 1 my soldier feels lifeless and my balls feel shriveled up… My experience would tell me this is the flatline but flatline usually comes in the second or third week based on my other reboots and I would feel urges immediately through days 1-7… I guess this time is different.. Let me know what anyone thinks about that.. No matter what imma keep on trucking
 

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Had a relapse already…. Starting day one again today!!! Just came home from work.. About to take a walk because of urges… Then go to church later on in the afternoon…. Keep the faith everyone!!!
 

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Day 2: Took a walk this morning and then went to work at 10… Just got home and about to chill outside to enjoy the beautiful weather… Just started a diet today too… I’m so motivated and I’m definitely aware of the flatline and bracing myself for it…. Keep it up fellas I’ll try to comment on as much threads as I see… Stay focused and motivated!!!
 
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Day 3:Woke up early this morning and had the day off… Went to take a walk around 7… Ate a snack and cooked breakfast… Went to help my grandma run errands.. Took back some bottles and helped her with groceries.. Went back to my house and read my book in the backyard… Had minor urges of my brain telling me to relapse just had to ignore it and keep on pushing.. It’s also hard to change your way of life when people try to bring you down but that’s another conversation lol.. Keep pushing fellas…. Stay motivated, self disciplined, and trying to be better everyday!!!!!
 

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Day 4: Think I went into the flatline temporarily but no worries.. I already knew what to expect… It’s gonna be a roller coaster ride.. A bunch of ups and downs… About to take another walk and cook breakfast… Trying to find something to do on my day off…. Don’t go back to work until tomorrow….
Pros and cons for the last 3 days…
Pros.. High libido, motivated, high energy
Cons… Minor urges from my brain…
Still early in the reboot as I’m only in week 1… I noticed from expertise after the first week the time goes by fast… Keep on trucking fellas… Stay motivated, self disciplined and ready to fight this addiction.. Stay blessed
 

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Day 5:Took a walk in the morning and cooked breakfast… Went to work shortly after and had a lil meltdown dealing with a co worker but that’s a story for another day lol… Still worked my ass off today… Went to the bank and ran errands.. Back home now and probably gonna read a book outside… Feeling great… This summer is gonna be a fun one
 

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Day 6: Pretty much the same as yesterday… Took a walk, breakfast and work in that order… Got off of work went to T Mobile to get new service… Made a appointment to look at a condo tommorow so looking forward to that.. Almost a week and no major urges to PMO…. I’m prepared for when it comes though this isn’t my first rodeo haha…. I’ll keep posting daily.. Maybe weekly at a certain point… Stay motivated and self disciplined!!! Good luck everybody to get to the big 90!!!
 

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Day 7 and Week 2….. Saturday went to work at 7, went to get my new phone service then went to eat out with my Mom…. Had a minor distraction not related to PMO but just co workers tryna bring you down for no reason…. I did however had a big dream of P flashbacks… It was so strong but I got up right out of bed and started working out ASAP…. Week 2 aka day 8… Couldn’t sleep.. Woke up and started running suicides in my basement… No lie lol.. Went to work and it went pretty well… Definitely helps with the reboot process…. Went to check out condos for me to move in to… Went to afternoon church service and had a meltdown after the service… Been stressed out but not gonna let that affect this reboot….
 

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Day 10… We got to double digits!!! Had the day off and took a road trip to New Jersey for my sisters graduation… Went shopping and now back at the hotel.. Had a accidental moment at looking at a girl from one of my favorite scenes from my favorite movies with family… A ditzy moment… Nothing I can’t over come though…. Still gonna keep on trucking I’m to committed….
 

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Day 12… Took my walk in the rain… That’s not gonna stop me.. Ate breakfast went to work and went to return the rental car we took to New Jersey and now back home about to eat dinner… Had the craziest horniest dream last night.. My brain is really trying it!! We just gonna keep on trucking!!! I already knew what to expect… Good luck to al the others aiming for the big 90… It’s also a lifestyle not just for 90 days but for the rest of your life!! Stay motivated and focused!!!! We got this
 

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Day 14… The end of week 2….. I guess the hard part for me is not even the porn flashbacks that pop up in your head and the dreams it’s people in real life trying to bring me down during this reboot.. From the people at work it’s just so exhausting… Imma still stay strong with the reboot though… I don’t know if stress holds back the progress or not… But still trucking 💪🏿
 

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Day 16…. Just got fired from my job but still going strong with this reboot… Applied to about nine other jobs immediately… For now gonna keep working on in my yard and running errands until I find work…. Road to day 90 is still on full effect
 

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Day 18: Started getting back to playing basketball this morning and think I’m going to shoot around and practice every morning to start my day… Definitely a great thing to replace my p addiction.. Played basketball heavily before it… A high school athlete can you believe it lol…. Might also go to get a membership at the gym aswell… Played basketball this morning took a shower and had breakfast…. Went to pick up my medicine at the pharmacy and got a haircut after.. No new job as of yet but hopefully will get a call sometime this week.. Staying focused, active and productive through this process is key.. Still on my diet also…Let’s keep on trucking
 
I would advice u of taking ScreenShots of success stories and the symptoms and disasters that this addiction causes and keep them in your phone, this way before u do anything that might make u relapse or would lead to it, u read checkout those screenshots.
secondly, get ur self a pet, a cat or a pigeon or a rabbit, someone that would be with u in ur *alone* time, this way ur not so *alone* anymore.
thirdly, blocking porn and social media on your phone would help as well. if u go to my profile u will find a thread about a trick on how to do so.

goodluck.
 

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Day 20!! It’s real from here now on… Had a crazy dream that I went back on social media and started browsing pictures of women… It felt so real… Anyway woke up.. Brushed my teeth and went to the basketball court and shot around for about 2 hours…Definitely a healthy replacement for P addiction… Got home took a shower and went to my grandmas house to help with some things over there and finally just to have peace…. Also think I’m in the flatline…Been on and off with that for the past 2 weeks… Anyways still feeling motivated and uplifted and exciting for that light at the end of the tunnel.. Have a long way to go but I’ll know I’ll get there off faith…. Good luck to everybody and keep on trucking!!!
 

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Day 21: The end of week 3… Starting to gain more confidence and be more social…. Especially when I see women…. Replacing PMO with healthy activities such as basketball is really working for me…I go out on the court every morning for about 2 hours and work on my game…. Running errands always helps me stay busy also… Been cleaning around the house also to stay busy.. Organizing my things always works…Doing they at the moment… I am learning that keeping a set schedule really helps…. That’s what I’ll continue to do.. Stay motivated, self disciplined and be active and productive!!!
 
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