At my rehab/residential we were challenged to tell more than 2 people about our addiction, tbh I was already thinking about this, I am sick of living this secret life, sick of what it does to me, how it keeps me alone.
For more than 30yrs I have followed the career of Paul Merson, a professional footballer & addict. He has lived his addiction in public for many years, but, most recently in a documentary (bbc iplayer) he says "if being public about his addiction helps just 1 person not to go through what he has, then its worth it".
I told a good friend at work last week, i actually broke down in front of him when i explained about my addiction. He has been great about it, very supportive, i know his wife well aswell & i trust her so told him if he needed to then tell her so my secret isnt a secret for him aswell. I popped in his house the other day & she was there, she gave me a hug, said how brave it was to tell them then told me to get back i was too close
i love her humour!!
Yesterday while having a message conversation with an old girlfriend of mine yesterday (my big thing in my addiction is sexting which always leads to other things) things started getting abit hot which is not unusual for us, needless to say i could feel it triggering me. I took the decision to tell her about my addiction, we go back almost 40yrs so i trust her, just like my friend she was amazing, so supportive, wants to help me anyway she can.
For me, just the fact these people that i trust know about my addiction, they want to help me & i can reach out to them when i need them drives me on even more to beat this effin thing that has dragged me down or far too many years!
I learnt a saying on my rehab, "those that matter don't mind, those that mind don't matter".........its so true
That’s impressive. Truly. I think this addiction is unique and maybe the hardest to admit to. Good job my friend.
Merson - what a role model he is. We non-Arsenal fans think he’s a legend too,
Yes for sure, lets be honest who actually talks openly or honestly about their sexlife with friends or family.
The funny thing is when i went for a pint with my friend over the weekend he told me about a problem he is having sexually with his wife, Its not porn induced he actually thinks its medication he is taking but he said "your the only person that knows". I doubt without our conversation about me that he would have mentioned it, he felt comfortable telling me tho so its now given him someone to reach out to if he wants to talk things over aswell.