A tough battle

[ladysudan]

DAY 1 (6 May- 7May) : Addiction can be strong enough to replace some things but never my life.

 

[ladysudan]

DAY 2 (7 May - 8 May) : Had a terrible day but still I managed to be successful.

 

[ladysudan]

DAY 3 (8 May - 9 May) : God helps those who help themselves. I felt an urge today but I turned off the internet router to prevent myself from any sort of wrongdoing.

 

[ladysudan]

DAY 4 (9 May - 10 May) : Usually I used to do it after every 3 days but seeing myself go through 4th day without even engaging in PMO just makes me so proud of myself. I'm crying!

 

[ladysudan]

DAY 5 (10 May- 11 May) : I am ashamed of myself. I couldn't control myself and end up masturbating and doubting about my sexuality. I'm doomed.

 

[TryingHarder]

Hey, you're not doomed. Relapses happen. Keep trying! Check out this video with Dr. Trish Leigh about how addiction hijacks your brain.

 

[ladysudan]

Normally after a relapse the feeling of guilt and shame surrounds almost everyone and so it was with me too. But glad that I stop feeling broken and sorry for myself. Yesterday I came across a quote saying, "Self pity isn't a badge to carry because it gets fixated you on tragedy" and I couldn't agree any more.

With that saying, I'm proud to share my slight and small improvement and achievement i.e., I have completed my 1 week of no PMO journey.

I hope I will make it to one month.

 

[Phineas 808]

Congrats on 1 week free, ladysudan!

 

[TryingHarder]

Good work, ladysudan. If you can do one week, you can do two. If you can do two weeks, you can do a month, and so on. One day at a time!

 

[ladysudan]

Congrats on 1 week free, ladysudan!

Good work, ladysudan. If you can do one week, you can do two. If you can do two weeks, you can do a month, and so on. One day at a time!

Thank you! @Phineas 808 @TryingHarder