I relapsed last night ( + zero sleep whole night ) everything started from idea to play video games after trying not to. Today I will throw out my console what is also my device to watch xxx
I can still achieve 80 days before I will be 30 y.o.
I don't want to live like that, Now I'm 100% sure that It wasn't only xxx but video games as well what hold me back from being free. I have to start believing that I can overcome this addiction, be healthy. Because at that moment I don't see girls attractive as they should be to me, I can get only some erection from watching xxx but is not full and dissapear in few second if I start looking for another video/actress. Worst part is that I feel like I'm not good enough for women, what is horrible I just feel like less value person and I treat and think about myself in that way