Finally posting
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Ezel
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Get up man, don't start overthinking it, just start again and keep moving ahead.Slipped today
searching4good
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Dungalef
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Thanks @Blondie, I needed that. 
Gotta think some more about what I learned. Mostly that I still can't trust myself in some contexts, which is ok. It's a good thing to know, and I need to plan accordingly.
I also really do need to find a way to come to that point again of "it just isn't an option." Not just porn, but artificial sex of any kind.
Gotta think some more about what I learned. Mostly that I still can't trust myself in some contexts, which is ok. It's a good thing to know, and I need to plan accordingly.I also really do need to find a way to come to that point again of "it just isn't an option." Not just porn, but artificial sex of any kind.
searching4good
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Dungalef
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Thanks for checking in! Been super busy the last couple of weeks, and haven't been on here as much. I've had a few issues here and there, but right now I'm doing great. I don't remember how long my current streak is... Maybe a week or so? I started rereading the easy peasy book, and while I don't totally agree with all parts of it, I'm finding it super helpful as a tool for getting myself back into the headspace I was in for my really long streaks. It's hard to explain, but it's kind of like I have to somehow click into this zone where I just know that I don't do that anymore, and that any and all forms of porn, even the most casual and tame, are part of the problem trying to suck me down.
Dungalef
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Day 1
Haven't posted in ages, but I've been lurking a bunch and keeping up with all of you guys, and I'm still doing ok. I may not have a big streak right now, but I'm actually feeling ok about where I'm at. By that I mean that I'm not super discouraged and hopeless, not that I'm in a good place and don't need to change anything. I've been having small issues here and there every week or two, generally fairly short but I have had a couple of longer sessions. Overall the issue lately has been with allowing myself the occasional "peek" that (unsurprisingly) sometimes gets out of hand. Generally it's been reddit that has been the problem, so I blocked reddit on my computer for now and I'm coming back on here to help kickstart me with some more accountability.
Despite the issues though, I still feel like I've been getting up and trying again each time instead of giving up, and I have a decent amount of *good* business in my life to fill the time with, and that I'm doing ok at remembering that I CAN do this. Basically even though the addiction is still around and kicking, it hasn't been getting into my head too much. And now it's time to take charge fully again and kick it out properly.
Haven't posted in ages, but I've been lurking a bunch and keeping up with all of you guys, and I'm still doing ok. I may not have a big streak right now, but I'm actually feeling ok about where I'm at. By that I mean that I'm not super discouraged and hopeless, not that I'm in a good place and don't need to change anything. I've been having small issues here and there every week or two, generally fairly short but I have had a couple of longer sessions. Overall the issue lately has been with allowing myself the occasional "peek" that (unsurprisingly) sometimes gets out of hand. Generally it's been reddit that has been the problem, so I blocked reddit on my computer for now and I'm coming back on here to help kickstart me with some more accountability.
Despite the issues though, I still feel like I've been getting up and trying again each time instead of giving up, and I have a decent amount of *good* business in my life to fill the time with, and that I'm doing ok at remembering that I CAN do this. Basically even though the addiction is still around and kicking, it hasn't been getting into my head too much. And now it's time to take charge fully again and kick it out properly.
Dungalef
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Day 1
So, I'm definitely finding that I'm stuck in a bit of a rut right now. I've gotten into a spot where almost any time I'm home alone (not that often, maybe once or twice a week) I'll have a strong impulse to look at some porn, and it's been tripping me up regularly. It's one of those things where I did it once or twice, and now my whole system is primed for it.
So I need a plan.... Success isn't just going to happen. For one thing, I want to make it a goal to post here daily until Day 14 at least, to keep me accountable. Perhaps I should also post when I'm home alone? Might not be a bad idea. And I always need to remember to be careful with computer use during those times. Avoid it when possible, otherwise be limited, deliberate, and wary.
So, I'm definitely finding that I'm stuck in a bit of a rut right now. I've gotten into a spot where almost any time I'm home alone (not that often, maybe once or twice a week) I'll have a strong impulse to look at some porn, and it's been tripping me up regularly. It's one of those things where I did it once or twice, and now my whole system is primed for it.
So I need a plan.... Success isn't just going to happen. For one thing, I want to make it a goal to post here daily until Day 14 at least, to keep me accountable. Perhaps I should also post when I'm home alone? Might not be a bad idea. And I always need to remember to be careful with computer use during those times. Avoid it when possible, otherwise be limited, deliberate, and wary.
Dungalef
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It's a good idea, unfortunately the times when I'm home it's usually to monitor a sleeping baby or some such thing that keeps me at home, so it's a bit tricky. But the same principle applies of weakening the association. I think in my case one thing I can do is just to try to stay off the computer when I can, unless there are tasks to be accomplished.