FreedomFromTheStruggle_11
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Doing good, bro. One day at a time. No more crazy goals to meet. Just not today.How we doing @FreedomFromTheStruggle_11?
Doing good, bro. One day at a time. No more crazy goals to meet. Just not today.How we doing @FreedomFromTheStruggle_11?
Thank you, bro for that. I've been training my brain for the wrong thing and the wrong way for a long time. Just like if I want big arms, I've got to train them to get the results I want. I have to re-train my brain to get back to it's old self and to get the results that i want. I just want a physical human instead of one on my phone. Thankful for these hard lessons. Thankful others have gone through them as well and can offer support.I've had many days like this, one in particular that I can recall. It was the day that really changed it all for me. Something just clicked in me that spring day. It wasn't based on "inspiration" (which will always fail you) or "motivation" (which will never last), rather, it was an internal decision and state of mind that I KNEW I was over it. It can be a life changing moment.
Press on brother.
Amongst all your amazing prose @FreedomFromTheStruggle_11 I chose these two critical sentences. You are a hero.I can choose. We can all choose.
I'm so happy for you freedom, glad that you are standing your ground when things gets though. all the best champ.Big victory to report. Last night, I had a really, really bad urge to PMO. My mind began to throw flashbacks and other thoughts and images at me and telling how great one last session would be. Instead of that, I learned that during an urge, I tense up. I don't get stressed or anxious, but I tense up a lot. My brain goes into fight or flight and I end up going into the darkness. I took a few deep breaths and watched a guy on YouTube who does racing videos. I tried my best to focus on that and not my mind. Eventually, after about 20 or 30 minutes, the urge subsided. Thankfully. I won't lie to you guys, I was tempted. Badly. My addicted brain presented a great and convincing argument. For almost 6 years of trying to stop this addiction, I've been haunted by this one urge that I can't ever get through. The one hurdle I can't get over. I'd always go back to the starting gate and the cycle continued. Last night, I broke that cycle. It feels good and my confidence today is up. That being said, today has been a bit shaky as my brain is trying to convince me again. Not as bad as last night though. I can choose. We can all choose. Last night was just different. Maybe because I said no and finally said no on my terms instead of robotically going where the urge told me to go. Flashbacks and mind images are a part of this. I gotta get better at shaking them off and moving on quicker. Other than that, I'm so proud of myself. I haven't been during this journey a lot of the time. There is just so much failure and pain. But experiences like last night show me this is possible. Thank you @Ezel @Blondie and so many others who continue to support me.
Thank you for being an inspiration.Amongst all your amazing prose @FreedomFromTheStruggle_11 I chose these two critical sentences. You are a hero.
You're good, bro. I'm doing fine. Currently in a flatline. But, learning more on how to let go and deal with the urges when they come back. Keep your head up @Ezel. You've got this, bro.I hope you're doing well too @FreedomFromTheStruggle_11, I thought I was writing on @Ezel's thread!
Best man