What if:
What if I quit pmo forever?
What if I quit porn fantasy and reading porn stories online?
What if, for the first time I put everything I have into this and let all my anxiety and worries go?
What if, I just accept the reboot without question and in 3 months look at myself then vs now?
What if, I become the person I've always wanted to be and finally heal?
I've never been able to answer these questions, because of my continuing relapses. I will say though, I'm tired. I'm tired of porn and all the garbage that comes with it. I've never put my entire soul into quitting, only parts of me. Today, I'm ready to commit to that challenge. I've gotten to over 100 days in the past. I can get to 200 days if I really try. I deserve better. See, I've never been able to do things for myself only. I'm just not wired that way. I'm always doing things for others and helping them. I'm not bragging, just stating facts. I've never done anything for myself, and for my own benefit. I think I should this time. I'm the only one who can quit this for me. No one else is going to come along and hit the off switch. I have to commit, and I have to do this. I have to find freedom from the struggle.