Day 2 went decent. Just tired mentally and physically. I would like to talk about my relapse the other night. For 33 days, I remained porn free. My anxiety and stress faded away, and I was finally the best version of myself. I was working out harder than I ever have and just was feeling amazing. I was out of my head, out of the screen and on top of the world. I had urges, but I was finally able to get over them and move forward in healing. Until the other night, it was late, and one thought turned into another. One flashback led to another. I got stuck in my head again, anxious and stressed about my urges. I finally reached the point, where all rational thinking left me. The addicted part of my brain took over and I ended up with another relapse. Thinking about that today, I realized that when I'm calm, and out of my head I'm the best me. I'm able to navigate myself through urges better. I'm just better in every area when I don't let myself get trapped in a whirlwind of stress and worry. So that's why I relapsed. It's clear now, and I know how deal with that the next time it comes around. I spent a lot of last night, and some of today reading YBOP articles and success stories. They motivate me to get back to that version of me, that the last attempt helped me to finally achieve. Looking forward to the challenge. Looking forward to the ups and even the downs. The last relapse, will be the last relapse.