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Day 371 (no MO since Day 364) -- Well, ever since I came to that epiphany earlier and stopped caring / optimizing around sleep, I've gotten 7+ hours for the past few nights. That's the secret folks -- it's not just my epiphany, I've read many others who have reported the same.

Otherwise, urge to MO has come down a lot in past 2 days as I've been hanging out with a lot of people. The trick is to keep yourself busy / out and about I guess, and replacing it with activities you enjoy. Onwards
 
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Day 373 (no MO since Day 364) -- Well my libido is super low. Wouldn't say dead but maybe 10-15% of normal. I was in a pretty vapid part of the country this weekend for a wedding (take a guess haha) and saw literally 200 women who had IG model type bodies. But while I did look, didn't really feel much libido down there. Think it's part of the flatline. Glad that the temptations have died down a lot though
 
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Day 377 (no MO since Day 364) -- Wow, urges are definitely stronger when you don't MO for a while. It's only been 12ish days of no MO and I already get more urges from random stuff. It's all controllable of course (2-4 out of 10 generally) but it does kinda suck in terms of being distracting. Anyway, just focusing on pushing towards my goals -- I weighed myself two days ago and was at 160.6lb. I think I can get under 160lb before June 1st as planned, and then hoping to get to 150lb by end of July. It's ambitious but I'll be very happy if I can make this happen while continuing to work out. Rehabbing a small injury but that should be good to go soon enough. Hope everyone is well
 
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Day 381 (no MO since Day 364) -- Some stuff to report here.

I hit 159.2lb today! Finally under 160lb, I haven't been this light since my sophomore year of college (way back!). Going to check again tomorrow morning to make sure it wasn't some kind of fluke but good progress, the next milestone will be 150lb< by end of July.

The other thing I've noticed as I've lost weight over the past year really (think I was like 175lb this time last year) is how much different girls treat me. Part of this is no doubt the reboot since I've made much more of an effort (and it's way easier now) to be more gregarious / funny / outgoing. But last week I was at this wedding and was talking to this really cute girl who sort of was indifferent at first and then literally went out of her way to come talk to me. We were apparently on the same flight home and she runs up to me and we chatted for like an hour!

Couple years ago I wouldn't have even been able to carry around a conversation for that long with a girl like that. These days it's much easier. Putting on mass is going more slowly than I'd like but I really am excited to see what will change with interactions with girls after I can make that happen. If just getting skinner (I'm still a tad chubby despite my reasonable weight since I'm skinny fat -- look that up if you're not sure what it is haha -- and I store fat in my upper body vs. those lucky blokes who store it in their lower body) plus reboot at this stage has gotten me this far, I am stoked to see what the next part of the journey holds

On the porn front, definitely stronger urges now that I'm not MO'ing. I'm really giving thought to doing no MO for more than 90 days, it really seems like the fastest path to recovery. Though 90 days is hard enough! I'll first focus on that and then decide where to go from there. Hope all you gents are well
 
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First_step_thousand_miles said:
I hit 159.2lb today! Finally under 160lb, I haven't been this light since my sophomore year of college (way back!). Going to check again tomorrow morning to make sure it wasn't some kind of fluke but good progress, the next milestone will be 150lb< by end of July.
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Hey my man congrats on hitting that weight goal, there is nothing like getting down to business and getting to where you want to be. 150 is just around the corner for sure. You mentioned your weight back in college, it's funny how fast it can catch up with you, I know what you mean.
First_step_thousand_miles said:
The other thing I've noticed as I've lost weight over the past year really (think I was like 175lb this time last year) is how much different girls treat me. Part of this is no doubt the reboot since I've made much more of an effort (and it's way easier now) to be more gregarious / funny / outgoing. But last week I was at this wedding and was talking to this really cute girl who sort of was indifferent at first and then literally went out of her way to come talk to me. We were apparently on the same flight home and she runs up to me and we chatted for like an hour!
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Love this. No one wants to admit this, especially the fairer sex, but yes, how we present ourselves to the world has a gigantic influence on how we're perceived by it, and especially how we're perceived by women. Naturally women will usually deny this, and why wouldn't they, it goes against the idea that women are more egalitarian etc., but hey, words are meaningless, actions are everything! Obviously, there's many things we have no control of, our height, and facial structure etc. but whatever the gods have given us, it is our duty to be the best we can be and not hide it under our bad habits. I definitely know where you're coming from too, when I lost that weight over the last two years, there was very much a difference in the interactions of the opposite sex. I also think on a psychological level it's just as much our new found aura (fuck I can't I believed I used that word!) as it is them and their perception of us. When you lose all that weight you just feel so youthful and full of energy, and that makes you happy and attractive also, which has a big role in all of this.
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On the porn front, definitely stronger urges now that I'm not MO'ing. I'm really giving thought to doing no MO for more than 90 days, it really seems like the fastest path to recovery. Though 90 days is hard enough! I'll first focus on that and then decide where to go from there. Hope all you gents are well
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I'm glad this is working out for you. 👍
 
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Blondie said:
Hey my man congrats on hitting that weight goal, there is nothing like getting down to business and getting to where you want to be. 150 is just around the corner for sure. You mentioned your weight back in college, it's funny how fast it can catch up with you, I know what you mean.

Love this. No one wants to admit this, especially the fairer sex, but yes, how we present ourselves to the world has a gigantic influence on how we're perceived by it, and especially how we're perceived by women. Naturally women will usually deny this, and why wouldn't they, it goes against the idea that women are more egalitarian etc., but hey, words are meaningless, actions are everything! Obviously, there's many things we have no control of, our height, and facial structure etc. but whatever the gods have given us, it is our duty to be the best we can be and not hide it under our bad habits. I definitely know where you're coming from too, when I lost that weight over the last two years, there was very much a difference in the interactions of the opposite sex. I also think on a psychological level it's just as much our new found aura (fuck I can't I believed I used that word!) as it is them and their perception of us. When you lose all that weight you just feel so youthful and full of energy, and that makes you happy and attractive also, which has a big role in all of this.

I'm glad this is working out for you. 👍
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Thanks so much for the support and well-wishes man! This realization I've had in really thinking of doing no MO beyond 90 days is due to you my friend. You were the one that planted the seed and I've reflected on it and could not agree more. I can't guarantee anything yet, first want to push to 90 days but I'm going to do my utmost to keep this streak going as long as possible

I guess I've realized not everything will fire on all 4 cylinders at the same time all the time, but we have to keep marching on and striving for that whenever possible. Let's get after it!!
 
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Day 386 (no MO since Day 364) -- So I finally had my first wet dream. I've had sex dreams and such throughout my reboot, but this was the first time I woke up to something in my boxers :). Despite the not fun feeling, I'm actually thrilled because it's another marker of progress -- I haven't woke up with something in my boxers since I was 18 (9 years ago!) since I've been PMO'ing ever since on a consistent basis

It was a weird dream to be sure (the first part I thought I had relapse on no MO as I was in my dream MO'ing to imagination but in the second part was actually having sex in the vanilla doggy style to a regular girl), but hey I'll count it! It is odd how this works out because it's only been 22 days since my last MO and I had a real wet dream vs. when I first started the reboot I had 40 odd days of no MO and nothing down there despite having some sex dreams. Very odd

Got back from a weekend trip so couldn't post much, but I'm looking forward to pushing hard in all areas of my life. This wet dream has instilled more confidence that I'm trending in the right direction. Going to keep working on those fat loss goals and just talking with more women -- really does help your social skills so nothing is time wasted. Onwards
 
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Gotta say, my libido / urges feel stronger today. I looked it up on YBOP, apparently wet dreams can intensify urges afterwards for a bit. Just a healthy healing step but I guess this is the flip side. No worries though fellas, I am staying very strong
 
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