My Recovery Journal

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Day 10 PMO free,
Glad to get through yesterday ✅ this morning is less intense but I don’t feel too close to flatlining.
Porn is so bad for me, I would often wake up and plan things for after I do my PMO, those things were done poorly or not at all. Porn affected every aspect of my life negatively, socially, my health, work and finance, all bad.
I want to reclaim my life.
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Had a relapse.
It was hard to not act out. What I learned is that I have so much I need to talk about and accept or let go of. There is pain inside and when I pretend that I don’t need to address it it kind of stays stuck.
I know that will power is finite and things need to be structurally sound to break habits and make change.
I’m hoping that I move on from the slide and can keep fighting the good fight.
I’ve learnt from this relapse and that’s positive 🌅
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
I’m preparing to try again, I don’t feel as if I’ve let go into the addiction as much this time but I just really want my life back.

I need to prep for my next attempt.
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Really keen to get off PMO, I’m going to look at a bunch of videos and try to get an accountability partner.
Porn costs me so much confidence and happiness 😢
 

GrateClips

Active Member
Had a relapse.
It was hard to not act out. What I learned is that I have so much I need to talk about and accept or let go of. There is pain inside and when I pretend that I don’t need to address it it kind of stays stuck.
I know that will power is finite and things need to be structurally sound to break habits and make change.
I’m hoping that I move on from the slide and can keep fighting the good fight.
I’ve learnt from this relapse and that’s positive 🌅

that's a great way to look at a relapse - not berating yourself but picking yourself up and figuring out how to move forward.

its totally up to you whether you would do this, but i think for myself and many other men here, taking the time to not just post how a day/milestone went, but to also express ourselves in more depth whether its the past or how we manage our present can have a therapeutic and soothing effect in the journey.
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
4 days PMO free and feeling very good about it. I’ve weeks or a month up in the past and it has been great, I’m more confident and more productive so I’m really trying to think of that and how much of a better life it is for me.
I have been looking at myself emotionally as well, I crave porn when my craving for comfort and support goes unmet. I feel I need to heal myself to reduce the compulsion, relying on self will will not stop me relapsing, I need to heal inside.
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Day 9 PMO free. It’s been good I feel I need to be very vigilant right now. There is an itch wanting to be scratched and I have to stay strong, remember the lost of confidence and shame of using porn. And I need to celebrate 🎉 how good it is to be feel confident, happy and stable 👍
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
10 days without PMO 🙂
There have been challenges but I’m feeling so much better. I’m trying to face my buried emotions, they really trip me up, in a wiser better place than before.
 
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